Natasha Romanoff one-shots (gxg)

My miracle

In this one shot Y/n is a high functioning autistic(im autistic so its based off of me) its not really mentioned but some little things like the shoe part which you'll read!

also this is Y/n and Natasha's baby cuz lets just say tony figured something out lol

warnings: child loss, descriptive dr stuff, let me know if i need to add anything else

No one pov

Y/n and Natasha had always talked about having kids. So it wasn't a surprise when Y/n went to Natasha one day saying she was ready. That's how Y/n and Natasha found themselves here, in their bathroom on the edge of their tub waiting. They had been trying for 2 years now, but every time Y/n got pregnant she lost the baby. Y/n could never make it past 21 weeks. They had nurseries done up and names picked out. It was always devastating for both of them. So they decided this would be the last time before they talked about other options.

Y/n pov

I don't want this to be the last try. This is everything I've ever wanted and it hurts to think that it wont work. I've known from a young age that I wanted kids. I've always loved kids. all their firsts. And I know even if this doesn't work I'll still have all of that. But I want to be able to experience hearing their heartbeat for the first time, their first little kicks, their milestones and every other little thing in between. And I don't know what I'll do if I can't have that. I know it hurts Natasha. I'm not blind . She never says it but I always see the disappointment in her eyes every time the stick is negative, or when we find out we lost our baby. What will Natasha do if this one's negative? And what if I get pregnant but lose them again? I just want to give her this one thing, am i broken? How could she love me? I'm pulled from my thoughts by Natasha.

Natashas pov

Y/n has wanted this since she was a little girl. It's hard on her especially since I'm physically unable to have kids so this is all on her. We have already lost two little girls. Xena and Amiah. I don't know if she can take anymore loss. Don't get me wrong, this is hard on me too but I don't think I'll ever be able to feel the same pain she did when it happened. It's already been 5 minutes, but I can tell she's too stuck in her thoughts to notice, so I just put my hand on her thigh.

No ones pov

Y/n's pulled from her thoughts by natasha

"Baby?"

All Y/n can do is hum in response

"We should probably looks now"

Y/n looks up at Natasha with fear in eyes and rasps out

"Im scared natty"

That crushed Natasha's heart. Natasha knows why but still asks

"Why my love?"

Natashas pov

All Y/n does is shake her head trying not to cry. It hurts seeing her in so much pain.

"Oh my love don't cry, its okay"

She looks at me and says

"How is this okay?"

Before i can respond she continues as tears roll down her cheeks

"I can't do the one thing my body was made to do, i just want to give you what was taken from you"

I don't know what to say so all i can do is hug her and whisper sweet nothing in her ear.

"No matter what this test says i'm always gonna love you"

After shes calmed down i say

"Do you wanna look? Or me?"

She doesn't say anything, and just reaches for the test with shaky hands. It takes her a moment to actually look but when she does, she starts to sob. I can't tell, is it good?

Y/n pov

I flip the test over and start to sob. It's positive! Nat looks concerned. I can't stop the smile that creeps on my face. I just blurt out

"It positive, i'm pregnant Nat"

Next thing I know nat has me in a firm hug. She just keeps blurting out

"omg , omg your pregnant"

She pulls up my shirt till it just under my breasts and starts talking to our little one

"Hey there little one, its mommy here"

All I can do is cry, happy tears of course.

I can't wait for this journey with Natasha

A/n there will be a part 2 don't worry!
Please leave stars!

this is a lot sooner then i thought, but it got to over 2000 thousand word so im splitting it up

warning for future ones shots im gonna being using my features(hair/eye colour, hair texture/ length, body type(im a bigger person)) the one thing that i wont really specify is the race of Y/n(im white) so everyone can be included, if i ever use photos feel free to imagine something else or find a photo that fits more you! but i will try to find more diverse photos!

Also the photo at the top was to sweet not to use!!

i hope you enjoyed reading im hoping to have pt. 2 up pretty soon , but im back to school Monday so it might take little longer!

take care of yourselves!! have a good day/evening/night!!

~Adi out <3