loucifer ✔

thirty eight

[ I think Im just ending this book at chapter fifty just because I don't like ending in the middle lol, I'm picky. ]

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It took a proper minute for Harry to cool down, unlike Louis who still thought he needed to put his foot down.

"I ordered pizza..if you want some." Harry spoke, peaking around the corner at Louis.

"I'm going home." Louis mumbled, standing up from the couch and walking towards the door.

"You said you'd stay." Harry whined as he slumped his back onto the wall.

"I'll be back." Louis muttered, putting his hand on the cold door knob, right before Harry grabbed his wrists and held them in his hands tightly.

"No you won't." Harry sighed, biting his lip and looking down.

"You don't trust me?" Louis whispered, knowing that he won't come back for a while, but to at least make the performance believable.

"No." Harry said simply with a small shake if his head.

"Why not?"

"Some things I just have to go with..and my mind is telling me..you won't come back." Harry said, his face only two inches away from Louis'

"You really want this break, Louis?" Harry asked, leaning closer to the smaller boy. Louis hesitatingly nodded and turned away, "why?"

Louis didn't say anything, he just closed his eyes tightly.

"Louis, why?" Harry asked again, voice practically begging for an answer.

"You already know." Louis mumbled, face still turned away from Harry.

"That's not the real answer." Harry said, "give me the real answer."

"That's the real answer, Harry. I know, you were right when you said I need to depend on you sometimes..but right now I need to be a little independent just for myself, I say I'm a slut and you tell me I'm not while inside my head is still saying I haven't changed and I never will change. I don't want that anymore." Louis admitted, "The way I put things last night was so fucked up and I'm sorry..I didn't mean for anything to mess up like this." Louis sighed heavily and swallowed thickly, his eyes were still closed, but he could feel the warm tears slither down his cheeks.

"Baby, calm down." Harry whispered as Louis continued to breathe heavily and sob, "Louis listen to me.."

Louis shut his eyes tighter and hung his head low.

"Open your eyes, just look at me."

Louis didn't listen.

"Please Louis!" Harry begged, shaking the boy's small wrists in both his hands, Harry took a deep breath and placed his forehead on Louis' before dipping lower to kiss him on the lips, twisting his head to the side. Louis responded late, but kissed him back stuck against that piece of wall space beside the door.

Harry pulled away and Louis gasped, trying to break free once again.

"Harry, if you love me so much..then let me go.."

"Louis, do-"

"Harry. Let me go." Louis whispered, "please.."

Harry's eyes didn't have the emerald green glow to it like it used to, It just looked dark, an over flooding with grey.

And as much as Harry wanted to oblige

He let Louis go.

He felt himself break a little on the inside as he watched the young boy walk out the door.