Being in a hospital is never fun, period. But there's one thing in this case that seems to make things better; the doctor who visits to check on you more frequently than others. Dr. Kim Namjoon is a totally swoon-worthy cardiac doctor who just happe...
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ᴛᴡᴇʟᴠᴇ | "ᴛʜᴇ ʜᴇᴀʀᴛ ᴛʜɪᴇꜰ"
-Namjoon- "He asked you out? Like on a date?" I sounded like I was interrogating her, but now I needed to know.
If he really did ask her out, I'm going to do way more than kick his ass. I mean I'm already planning to, but this excuse is an added bonus. He has no right. None. Well, this will only add fuel to the fire. You're never supposed to use water to douse a grease fire; as that only exacerbates the flames. Well, this little stunt only further fueled my fire. So, only one thing left to do. Burn up. If this is just another day for me to light up the world, then once again, they'll see my colorful charade. After all, we've been playing this game our whole lives, and when they come for me, I'll simply snap my fingers, and disappear. Hm. I don't like the thought of anyone being like me anyway.
I'm tired of being surrounded by clowns and liars. Y/n is the only one like me, whether she wants to admit it or not, and is the only one who truly understands. See, yes, I have friends, the others, but it is simply not enough. Y/n is the only one who will ever understand what it feels like to see the world this way. To see it in black and white. So, the only thing left to do is burn up. I'll light up the world yet again (mine at least) even if it's just for today. No problem, it'll feel nice to satisfy my urges again; continue my silly little charade.
"Yes. Like a date. Those were his exact words, but I said no. I'm not and I guess never have been interested in him that way and I honestly have zero confidence I'd be a good girlfriend."
I'm so proud of my baby for knowing to say no. She made the right choice. But why wouldn't she make a good girlfriend? Excuse me? Why the hell would she think that?
"Why do you think that?" I press. "Just curious."
"Ahh, I don't know. I just feel like because of what's going on right now and how stressed I am with school I wouldn't do a good job of making the time to put effort into a relationship. If that makes sense." She adds quickly. "I don't know. I've just never really been into the whole dating thing anyway. Besides, no one really wants to date you when they think you're dying."
I wish I could un-instill this idea in her that she's a freak because of health struggles. She's not, she's just been told this one too many times. Besides, I wanted to date her. Wasn't that enough?
"That makes sense. Just for the record though, I think you'd do a fine job of balancing life with being a girlfriend."
"Ah, thanks Namjoon. I honestly think I could if I really liked who I was with; then I'd make the effort. But it depends on who it is."
That made me wonder how much effort she'd put into our relationship whenever we got together. She denies this, but knowing her, I honestly think she'd be more invested than she thinks she would be. Hell, I've known her since I was a kid. I know her and all the amazing things she's done for me over the years. She'd definitely put more effort into it than she lets herself believe.
