Smuts & imagines

In my mind - Bucky Barnes

I love them. More than anything.

 "Do you love them Bucky? Like really love them." 

yes,

"God no Steve. They're like family."

My lover.

They ran in with Peter spraying silly string everywhere. "Pete wait!" They giggled making my heart get all gooey and warm. "Doll, be careful," I called out picturing worse case scenarios. "Pete wait I-" They ran and slipped on the water Steve spilt a little earlier. I ran and picked them up and carried them to the couch. "You okay darling?" I asked concerned looking for blood and bruises. they reluctantly pushed me off "Bucky!!" I glared at Steve "I thought I told you to clean that damn water up!!" I shouted. How could he? They're so fragile. I can't risk hurting or so much as losing them. 

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Nearly 7 years later 

"Who is Y/N? Why don't you tell me about them and maybe why you call them every hour."

"They're my-" What were they? My friend? My crush? "They're my best friend."

"They're more than that aren't they Bucky?"

"No! They're like my little sibling." More of a soulmate really.

"That's why you look like a tomato?" 

"Listen during the blip I thought- I hoped it'd be me but it was them. Every time they so much as bring up a mission- I can't lose them doc." I really can't imagine my life without them.

A week later

"Hello, Y/N, I'm Bucky's therapist." 

Y/N waved sheepishly. How adorable. 

"Tell me about you?" 

"Okay well I like the rainbow, I like rain, Bucky's my best friend. Ever. I like going on missions and Bucky thinks I'm expensive and clumsy but I just think the right side of my brain works faster than the left." I hid a smirk. "Also he said I looked pretty today so that made me happy. Sometimes I wish I could help him the same way he does me. Like I wanna help with his nightmares sometimes." They felt like they weren't helping? Of course, they were. Every time I had a nightmare just the thought of them lulled me back into a deeper slumber than before. 

"Okay so Bucky, leave the room, Y/n and I are going to have a talk." I got up and stepped out placing a kiss on their forehead right before I disappeared. 

YNS POV:

"So tell me, in your dreams how do you see Bucky? In your miracle do you get married? Do you want to kill him?" KILL BUCKY?! Dumb bitch what kind of bullshit- 

She's only trying to help.

"I'll be straight with you, I have to be happy and excited, he already has his own shit to deal with. I love him. He's overprotective and to him, I'm a little puppy just dying to be held. All I want is to see him smile and if that means crying myself to sleep every night or hell, falling apart once a month I'm okay with that. In my miracle, he lives happily ever after with the woman of his dreams in my miracle he doesn't wake up every night screaming. And if I'm lucky enough, I'll be his perfect lover." 

"Thank you, why don't we invite Bucky back in." 

BUCKYS POV:

"Welcome back James"

"Yep" I muttered, just wanting to know what they said.

"Okay let's get right to it. Y/N, Bucky is in love with you. It's obvious. You can't baby him for the rest of his life" My jaw dropped. Little shit!

"Bucky, Y/N is in pain. All they want to do is baby you even if it kills them. They've fallen hard and clearly, you're both oblivious to this." They what?

How was I supposed to process this?

They like me back?

They're in pain?

Was it me? 

Did I cause them to cry?

"You're hurting?" That was all I could force out. 

"James Buchanan Barnes! You just found out I'm in love with you and all you can think is 'They're in pain'? I mean seriously?! How many years are we gonna do this for?!" 

They were right, they often dropped subtle hints that they liked me. I was quite oblivious wasn't I?

Maybe I should kiss them?

No. I can't. Not without consent.

they just confessed their love. I don't think they care.

I can't risk our friendship. All I've got left is them and sam.

They looked at me expectantly and I stood up grabbing my jacket to leave. They grabbed my metal arm. "God, you're such a dick, James!" They yanked me closer and kissed me. "Sam is waiting, let's go before Karli kills our last Captain America." and just like that, they were dragging me around again. It happened so... so... fast? 

God, I love them. 

My precious doll.

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