Smuts & imagines

Memories - Eddie Munson

Summary: Y/N and Eddie have been best friends since elementary, the got into an argument around a year ago and haven't spoken since.

The argument:

Y/N climbed into Eddies van and they rode to his trailer in silence, sharing a joint. "Y/N say something please. I know you have something to say." Eddie finally spoke switching lanes knowing whatever was coming Y/N would want to go home. "I'm in love with you." Y/N said, tears stinging in his eyes. "No you're not." Eddie said through laughs in disbelief. "Is it so hard to believe that I can love?" Eddie nodded "Uh yeah. Y/N, you don't even love your parents who worship you like you're god and you definitely don't love yourself. Do you even know what love is?" Y/N gritted his teeth letting tears slip. "You're right. I'm sorry I meant I hate you." Eddie pulled up to his house and Y/N climbed out the van. "Fuck you Munson." He said before going inside. And all though Eddie would never admit it, in that very moment he realized he loved him more than anyone in the world and he'd just let him go.

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Now Y/N and Eddie were different people with different lives but everyone knows the story. They were both so in love but they weren't, and may never be, made to be together. The two drowned themselves in weed and alcohol failing every class not making even an effort. Now Y/N was running low and Eddie was his last hope. He hesitantly walked towards the picnic table and sat down waiting for the same boy that broke his heart. "'Sup pretty boy." Y/N's head whipped and Eddie was there. "You gave me whiplash you dick." Y/N complained. "Let's make this quick." Y/N said pulling a 20 out his pocket. "Y/N" Eddie grabbed his wrist. "Can we please talk." Y/N nodded and sat on the bench again and Eddie sat across from him and stared him deep in the eyes.

"I love you too." Y/N nearly died of laughter. "It's been a year. Too little to late." Eddie felt his heart clench. "Please, just let me treat you the way you deserve to be treated." Y/N rolled his eyes. "Fine. I'll give you a trial run." Y/N said softly. "Can you drive me home? Please." Eddie nodded and Y/N held his hand the whole ride home.

And just like that Y/N and Eddie would spend the entire week together when on the last night of the trial run Y/N wanted to give him cookies as a way of letting him into his heart. He used the key Eddie left under the doormat and came in, metal music blasted. Y/N went in his room and in that very moment he was back to over a year ago when Eddie crushed his heart.

Eddie jumped up and Steve jumped off of him, the two covering themselves. "I wish you stayed in my memories!" Y/N said through sobs. Eddie stood and walked over "Y/N I meant it I do love-" Y/N turned shaking his head. "No! I was dumb to think you loved me. You just don't like the idea of me being someone else's. I can't be your friend! Can't be your lover, can't be the reason we hold back each other from falling in love." Eddie shook his head. "Why can't we be just friends? Why is it all or nothing?" Y/N scoffed. "Eddie! The endings always going to be the same, I'm always gonna hurt. If we date, you don't really love me, if we're just friends, I'm always going to pine over you, please just stay in my memories." Eddie sighed quietly and sadly. "I'm gonna miss you all over again." Y/N nodded "Me too."

The two started crying and holding each other. "Please don't go." Eddie sobbed out. Eddie never cried. Y/N shook his head. "You know I love you right?" Eddie nodded. The two held each other, Eddie still in his boxers and Y/N still holding the cookies. "Always dickwad." Eddie chuckled. Y/N kissed his cheek and slowly left the cookies on the counter and left.

(Based off memories by Conan Gray)