Smuts & imagines

Scars - Remus Lupin (day 5?)

6:00 pm
"You okay?" Remus asked as Y/N entered the loud common room with sadness. Only Remus ever noticed. The room went silent and everyone looked over at Y/N's puffy red eyes and flushed cheeks. Her red stringy pyjama top didn't cover her well so she took Marlene's sweater and covered herself quickly. The Calvin Klein plaid Pyjama pants didn't hide her shape very well and she felt disgusted. However, she didn't have other pyjamas because she and her brother Sirius left home and were staying at the Potters. She gasped in a panic and ran upstairs and ran a bath.

7:03
Lily ran downstairs yelling loudly at Marlene. "I know but if she doesn't tell us we can't do anything to help!" Marlene scoffed "she's been in the bath over an hour at least check on her!" Sirius perked up at this knowing of Y/Ns urge to hurt herself anyway possible. "What!?" The marauders all looked at each other a moment. "Has she said anything? Have you checked on her?" Remus asked as if Sirius' mind reader. Really, he and Y/N were just secretly dating. Lily and Marlene shook their heads and Remus bounced out of his seat running up and into the bathroom.

"Y/N are you alright?" Y/N made no attempt to hide herself revealing her naked body. Remus turned around and covered his eyes in shock. "Y/N? Are you okay?" Y/N let out an exasperated gasp before crying. She stared at her red body, as the heat of the bath was almost like a punishment for not being enough. For looking bad. For failing in potions. Everything she could find wrong with herself, every mark, every scar, every breath she didn't like needed punishment.

Remus sighed and sat on the ledge of the tub uncovering his eyes slowly keeping them on her face and her face only. "Y/N?" He held a hand out and she put her hand on his. "Jesus christ Y/N you're burning hot." He reached and touched the water. It was nearly as hot as fire. He winced but still helped her out the bath. "Why don't we go read a book okay, go get dressed." She examined her shaking body in the mirror and more tears ran down even though she tried to hold back. "Y/N What's wrong?" Remus loved the taste of her name on his tongue. It felt so perfect to say her name.

He grabbed her robe and she put herself in it hiding her body. "What's wrong?" He asked again. Y/N finally opened her mouth. "I hate me Remus. I hate everything about me. My scars, my voice, my weight I-" he cut her off and hugged her tightly. "I love you though Y/N. I love your scars. I love your voice. And I don't see anything wrong with your weight." Y/N shook her head. "Why? I'm ugly. I'm annoying. That's why mum kicked me out." Remus rose a brow, "Sirius said you ran away. Like he did." Y/N shook her head rubbing the tears off her face roughly. Remus sighed softly thinking up ways to help. "Your parents are morons if they don't see how perfect and amazing you are. You're funny and smart and cute and I'm always going to love you. I don't care if nobody else loves you because I love you."

They sat down on the floor and Remus held her in his arms. The things he would do for the girl. Sirius opened the door and Y/N looked up at him, "Don't be mad..." was all she could say or think. Sirius shook his head "He's a good guy and I trust you both." Internally Sirius wanted to scream but there were bigger things to worry about and he knew Remus well enough to know he won't intentionally hurt her. "I'm more upset that you didn't tell me." Remus looked at him with teary eyes. "Touch the water." He muttered holding Y/N even closer. Sirius reached his hand in and winced loudly. "Y/N? Why would you hurt yourself like this?" Y/N inhaled deeply, "Sirius you know how much I hate myself. I deserve this and we both know it." Sirius shook his head. "No. Nobody deserves this. Especially not you Y/N." he stayed and hugged Remus and Y/N (still in her robe Ofc) tightly.