𝐖𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠:
𝐒𝐚𝐝
𝐓𝐖:
𝐒𝐮𝐢𝐜𝐢𝐝𝐞 𝐀𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐦𝐩𝐭
𝐒𝐞𝐥𝐟 𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐦
𝐑𝐚𝐳𝐨𝐫
𝐏𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐬
Y/N POV:
Just another day of me wanting to die. I have great friends, but my family hates me. Everyone tells me to eat less, and loose weight, though my friend says my weight is fine. I'm actually underweight, but I don't know what the fuck my family members think underweight is. They always tell me to eat healthier, eat less, and exercise, but when I do, they tell me to eat more, then they say that my legs look like sticks.
Today, I'll be visiting my close friend from school, Dua. She's the kindest person ever, she's very nice, and she never judges me. She always listens, whatever she's doing, she'll listen. No matter how busy she is, she'll always be there for me.
I'm just getting ready to see her, I'm so excited to talk to her! I just got out of the bathroom, and now I'm looking for something to wear, I get this crop top and highwaisted jeans. I was about to dress myself up when I got a notification. It was a message from mom. "Hey ugly child, go get some eggs bread and milk from the grocery, don't eat too much, you're fat enough." My smile dropped. Me and Dua planned to have dinner together tonight, but I guess I won't be eating anything.
I get dressed quickly, then went to the store 5 blocks away from my house. I got the bread, milk and eggs, then went back home. I put the milk and eggs in the fridge and the bread in the pantry. I text Dua to ask her what time she's picking me up. She immediately responded, "maybe like 3, I'm about to take a bath, and yk I take too long" I laugh at the last sentence. She knows herself, so much.
My phone lights up again and I see Dua's name. I open it.
My bestie<3
Dua: Hey Y/N, Sorry, I can't go anymore. My mum called me, and said Rina was sick, and I'm going to visit her..
Me: Awh! It's ok, I hope Rina gets better soon, tell her I said hey!
Read: 2:36 pm
Man... Now I can't see Dua, she's my happiness, but I can't see her. I literally haven't seen her in months.. Whatever, I'll just eat- Oh wait, I don't want to. I'm not hungry. I'll just play games, maybe Roblox.. My cousin told me to try it out, but my 16 year old ass probably won't know how to play. Whatever, I'll just do random stuff.
I flop onto my bed, almost sobbing. I'm now sad, I miss Dua, but Rina's sick, I don't know what to do, I'm just so bored and sad. I started crying. Stupid! Why did I start crying! What is wrong with me?!
My thoughts began...
Kill yourself
Go die
You're worthless
You're a slut
Slit your wrists till you die
Fat bitch
Ew, you're disgusting.
I shake them off, but I kept thinking about them, it's like they won't leave me alone. They're always there, waiting to ruin my day..
I go into the bathroom, then sat down. I started crying, and looked for a razor blade. I found one, then started slitting my wrists. Not one arm, but both. I started slitting both, all the blood overflowing made me satisfied, I washed them when I was happy with what I have done, then looked for pills. At this point, I don't think I'm controlling myself, it's like I'm moving for a voice inside my head. I find a bottle of pills in the cabinet, and found sleeping pills. I write letters to my loved ones, and I plan on taking the pills once I finished.
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After a couple of hours, I finally finish. I made one for each of these people:
Dua
Rina
Gjin
My mum
My dad
My sister
My cousin
My friend, Railee
My friend, Jay
My friend, Alex
My grandma
My grandpa
I finished all of them, then messaged Dua.
My Bestie<3
Me: Yo I'm about to kms, always remember that I love you, ok? You're always gonna be my favorite person.
Dua: Dude, don't you fucking dare do that. This is not funny.
Me: Sorry, can't save me now. I love you.
I take the pills, with a cup of water, I went to my bathroom, filled my bathtub with water, then got in. I didn't bother removing my clothes, at least I'll die pretty. I slit my legs, then slit my throat. I don't even try to breathe, I just accepted death right then and there. I wonder what my parents would think.
Dua's POV:
Oh my fucking God, My angel is thinking about killing herself, fuck! I say goodbye to Rina and Dad, then drove to y/n's house.
When I got there, I went to her room, immediately. I couldn't see her so I check her bathroom...
There she is, lifeless, and a tub with water and blood. I look around then called an ambulance, though I knew she was dead. I mean, she was purple. I check her room, I see letters, one for me. I read it, and it said:
Hey Dua, Y/N here.
I'm sorry I'm ending it right here, I just can't fight anymore. You know how much I've been suffering, when I die, please don't mourn over me. I don't want to see you cry, I just want you to be happy, now that I'm finally free. Please tell my parents that I'm sorry for being such a disappointment.
I love you, and I'll see you in another life.
It was short yet sad, I couldn't believe she'll give up, she's literally the strongest person I know.
A/n: Hey besties! I'm 13 now, today's my bday (November 30) Also this sucks, but like I'm too lazy to rewrite it. Anyways, love y'all byeee
