Lover Boy | Jentzen Ramirez

Chapter 5

TW: mention of abuse and alcohol 

I knew that I could trust Jentzen, he wouldn't be the type of person to share my secret at least I didn't think so. I mean what could possibly go wrong if I told him?

"Well most people probably just assumed I moved here because Piper lived here. It was part of the reason, but not the full reason why I moved. So I'm gonna rewind a bit here but it will make sense in the end. So when my mom got married to my dad since she was forced into the marriage by him and his family that's when things kind of started to go downhill" I said taking a pause. This was kind of a hard topic for me to talk about, I've never really opened up about it to anyone. I could see Jentzen's facial expressions start to change and his smile started to fade. 

"My dad would go out and get drunk, then come home and abuse my mom or have sex without her consent. One day my mom found out she was pregnant with me and my dad could've cared less. When I was a toddler he would get mad at me for little things that any kid would normally do, but once I got to around the age of 11 he started to become physically abusive." I felt a tear drip down my face when I said those words. 

I felt Jentzen's hand grasp onto my face and wipe away the tears, "you don't have to continue if you don't want to, Ave" he said calmly. The look on his face was so sincere and gentle. 

"No no I want to, I'll feel better once I talk about it. I paused, "It continued and just kept getting worse every single time. No matter how many times we tried to stop him, we just couldn't. My mom and I felt like we couldn't tell anyone because it would just cause more harm to us. Finally last year my mom got the opportunity to go to the police with video evidence of him being abusive and we went to court. Eventually he was arrested for 10 years. After, my mom and I just didn't feel safe in our home because it brought back so many memories of him so we decided to come live here with Piper where we can actually feel safe." After I said that I couldn't stop the tears from coming out.

Jentzen's arms wrapped around me and he pulled me into his chest. "Hey, hey you're okay now. You're safe with me. I feel so bad for what you must have gone through and I can't even imagine how scared you must be from that experience. I just want you to know that you're safe with me and I would never, ever try to hurt you on purpose", he said trying to calm me down which helped. 

"Could you please not tell anyone, even Piper doesn't know that this was happening" I asked him hoping for a yes. 

"Of course I won't, your secret is safe with me and when you're ready to tell them you can tell them yourself" he replied. 

"Thank you" I said back knowing I could now trust him. I let him hold me in his arms for a couple minutes because his support really meant a lot to me, even if he didn't know it.

I got up from where we were sitting and went over to the mirror to see all my mascara smudged down my cheeks. "Oh my I look so ugly right now" I said trying to wipe the mascara off of my face while laughing at how dumb I look. Jentzen came up behind me and wrapped his arms around my waist 

"I think that you look beautiful no matter what" he said giving me butterflies. 

"Awww thank you, but I need to go get a makeup wipe from Piper's room so I can wipe this off. Could you come with  me please??" I asked, a blush slowly creeping up on my face. 

"Of course I can" he replied back.

Luckily, all of the squad was outside so we just snuck up into her room and grabbed the wipes. After a while I finally got the mascara off and I looked normal. Jentzen and I headed back downstairs and into the guest bedroom. 

"Wanna watch something" I asked.

"Sure" he replied and I turned on Brooklyn 99.

We sat there cuddling for a while when all of the sudden I felt a sharp stabbing pain in my stomach. "Oh fuck" I said while clenching my stomach.