depression stories

have you ever.. this was after I watched the fault in our stars sorry guys

Have you ever felt so numb where you can feel the tears rushing down your face and your just two emotional to function to know that everything's going to be ok to know that in a blink of an eye you could lose everything? Have you ever felt the need to just cry but you don't know why anymore but you cry anyway non stop. I know exactly the feeling It doesn't hurt to be numb but the numbness kills you inside you can feel the pain rushing in like water rushing past in a strong stream that it looks so peaceful you want to just jump in but you know if you do you won't make it out but the temptations were to powerful for you so you just let it all out the numbness inside you finally found a way to come out it killed your insides just like that strong stream I mentioned earlier it was way to powerful for you so it left you feeling numb you know your dead yet because the casket didn't come out your loved one didn't come out and say it's okay to feel this way you can leave when your ready if your ready know it's okay to leave were always going to be right where you left us right here waiting with you.. you know your not gone yet because your mind isn't at ease you know you it isn't time because your numbness hasn't taken over your outside yet it just took over what's left in the inside although I may not be gone but my body's numbness may only be in the inside but my mind may be at an ease but it's not even the end for me.. your beautiful and strong and no matter what you are always going to have people right by your side no matter what but just know that life is to short and valuable live life like it's your last never give up and always remember you are strong beautiful and a great person please don't leave to early just remember the trail of broken hearts your leading to your grave sit always remember to live each moment as if it's your last