depression stories

stories

I think I made my depression worsen If I leave now maybe I'd be nothing more than a memory every thought about why I can't stay in one place to long? I get too attached and I make it worse I make everything worse they say it gets worse before it gets better but that's like saying you shouldn't be happy bc other people have it better if I leave now and not reget a thing afterwards maybe soon after I'll be forgotten or nothing more than a once been not a has been maybe I'll just stay a memory that no one can forget at ease maybe by than if I left permanently than I'll finally be at peace and at ease.. why does life have to get in the way of everything why do I stay? Why do I sit around like a bumb and torture myself? Do any of you think it's easy being me or someone else? Than your sadly mistaken I fake being happy.. I fake the feeling of having a sense or purpose in life I've faked it all and whats sad is you all believed me depression makes you a good actress even when your not why does it have to be so hard? Why do I continue to stay? You all ask yourselfs this why do you? I stay bc I haven't found a way to be successful in my situation what about you? Are you staying for the same reasons as I am? Depression sucks anxiety sucks life for me sucks why does it all have to suck I've tried and tried but for what reason's? None have came to mind there's a thousand and one ways for me to end it I can think of reasons why I could leave and thought of what maybe two reasons to stay that's not a hole lot compared to the other side why are temptations so tempting? Are they asking me to fail? I know I already fail at life so what's the point I can think of more reasons to go than I can to stay. Have any of you wondered why I'm so tired all the time I'm tired of this life and which I am tied to I've been Wade down and beaten and tortured why can't I Just go