🌟My messed up life🌟

Its just a crush:)

Tw: bully1ng, s3x@ual assult, s3xu@al h@rrsment and suc1d3

french and spanish translations at bottom

About when I was 9 years old their was a boy named maze, he had just moved to the school and was looking lonely i felt bad for him so i started talking to him, he and i became friends almost instantly. we talked about everything. 

at this time i was a closted trans and i was a closted gay, some of my friends asked me who i had a crush on. i joked and said maze because i didn't know who else to say. Everyone squealed with excitement.

around this time our school had a thing called a dance-a-thon where it was bacicly a school fundraiser but also a school dance, my friends forced me to ask maze out, but after an hour they pushed me towards him and i asked him, ¨Um no thank you¨ he said laughing and then whispring something to his other friends. 

phew

I thought at the time. 

I came back to school the nextday seeing maze or who i thought was maaze standing in front of me with arms crossed. ¨Um yes maze?¨ i ask, he scoffs and rolls his eyes. ¨im not maze!¨ he says laughing. ¨of course you are!¨ i say pointing a finger at him. ¨for one get your brown hand off of my face, number two im mazes identical twin brother jay¨ I laugh, ¨why did you ask my brother out do you have a crush on him or something¨ i almost choke. ¨um maybe?¨ i say looking at my feet, ¨well nice to meet you Im going to make your life a living hell¨

jay was right.

from that day forth, he folowed me home trying to beat me up, i resorted too walking home with my good friend koi (their my partner now which is funny-) jay and maze tourmented me everyday by making jokes about my breasts, butt etc. they called me names and lots of other things like to kill myself because no one would ever love me.

when i was in grade 5 they started physically touching me in places i didn't want to be touched, i told them to stop but they didnt care. they told me to kill myself more frequently and even made fun of my presentation in front of the whole class because i was dumb (i eneded up getting an A+ though so hah)  

it was now december and i couldnt take enough of it anymore, I threatned to kill them one day with a pair of scissors

WARNING ITS GOING TO GET INTO DETAIL OF ME GETTING HURT

they took the pair of sccisors out of my hands and lifted up my shirt only showing my stomach. i sucked in my stomach knowing they were going to touch me again, i tried to not breathe so i could die at that very moment, but instead they started poking me with the sccisors and laughing about it, jay sat on top of me pinning me down trying to stab me.

later that day he told his mum and his mum contacted the school saying i was a lunatic. (jay and maze said i was the one doing all this stuff to them) about that same day almost everyone in the school found out. people would come up to me and tell me im disgusting right to my face, a phyco path and or other mean words. no one belived me everyone turned against me, around this time it had been my 13th sucide attempt because of them.

my teacher did belive me though, 

he was the only one who did.

he tried to talk to the school but the school blamed me, said i wa disgusting in my face and almost got me expelled from school. 

to this day they still tourment me, i have better friends now though so they protect me. 

funny cause just today they were saying stuff about me :)