Falling

Chapter 5 - Libby

****5 Years Later****

     I don't listen to the radio anymore. My life is filled with cocomelon and kids music now. Lennon my 4 year old is in the back seat singing her heart out to the wheels on the bus. As cute as my little girl is I will literally kill myself if she asks to hear it one more time.

   I'm only 22 with an almost 5 year old. I should be drinking and dancing and fucking but I have responsibilities. I wouldn't change anything for the world. Lennon literally saved me. I thought I knew what love was. I thought I had love till my heart was ripped from me, but my little Lenny changed everything.

  The day before prom, a.k.a the worst night of my life, my dad had been diagnosed with cancer. I was terrified when my mom told me the day before graduation a.k.a the new worst day of life and then everything changed. Lennon was born at the end of January on a cold as fuck day. Then a year later my dad died. My mom was so devastated she died of a broken heart a month later.

  I had been broken and my little Lenny saved me. I was happy my parents had got to meet her and more than thankful they had left me the house with no mortgage. I had given up my dance dreams the moments the positive sign appeared on that test.

I don't listen to the radio not just because I have a kid but because Tucker Cole has just released his new single and it's all that's on the radio now.

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"Mommy" Lennon yells from down the hall. I walk into her bedroom to see her standing holding two of her barbies.

 "Yes baby?" Her little bottom lip sticks out.

 "Mommy Christopher said I don't have a daddy because he doesn't love me but I pushed him down and told him I did have a daddy." She takes a little breath while my heart drops. "Do I have a daddy?" She asks my fierce little girl had sadness in her eyes. So far I have been able to avoid this conversation, but it seems little Christopher has decided to turn my Tuesday into a shit show.

I pull Lennon into my arms and sigh. "Baby girl you do have a daddy, but he had to go away and I'm not sure if he is going to come back." This is partially true Tucker left the day after graduation and hasn't returned. While the twins and Sammy all know who Lennon's father is, the town is only full of false gossip. Tucker doesn't know he has a daughter and I have no plans on telling him. That might make me an asshole, but the moment he sent my heart into the trash I just couldn't do it. I was unfortunetly for me, still in love with him. Tucker didn't want me. Living here in my parents house, in the god forsaken town, working two jobs and trying to raise my little girl with kindness and manners, while giving her the world is exhausting to do alone. Sammy is helpful when he can be, but he has his own life to live. Alexa is attending NYU doing fashion design, and Chelsea married Rhett last year (I did not attend) and I havent seen her since Lennon was born. I was alone in that manner, but I had Lennon and that's all that mattered to me.

I haven't been with anyone since that night. I mean being pregnant is a turn off and so is being a single mom, but honestly I wasn't interested.

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