Karlie, Toni and Taylor

Chapter 3

forevermorekaylor on tumblr asked for a sad ending so I wrote a sad one, hope you will enjoy it.

        She walked in New York, feeling lonely, ugly sobbing, she tried to reach Lily but the older girl didn’t answer, then she tried Cara, Jourdan, no one was answering their damn phone. She couldn’t think about a person, she lost every hangout she had with losing Taylor. She felt broken, dirty, confused, insecure, weak, she didn’t know what to do with herself and went home to take a long, warm shower. When she felt finally clean or less dirty than before because after the broke up sex she had with the blue eyes girl, every inch of her body still felt her presence and was marked by it, like little scars from the older girl’s nails on her back, on her legs, hickeys on her neck, on her thigh, it was painful to look and to touch. Maybe it was the purpose of it, to make suffer Karlie like she did to Taylor.

         She was now on her couch, trying to drink the hot chocolate she made but didn’t find any desire to drink it, she went to the kitchen like a ghost without motivation, her legs transporting her like a mechanical system without mind, she trow away the liquid in the sink and thought about everything happened since the past day. She started to cry, then she remembered how easy it was to be with Toni, this girl understood everything in a matter of seconds, she push the call button near her name on her phone and waited.

- Hello

- Hi it’s Karlie, can you please come to my apartment, I have no one else to call and i’m in the deepest shit.

- Oh what happened, don’t tell you were with someone when we fucked yesterday !

- hum eh yes I was, or I am I don’t really know, please I need someone, I don’t have anyone else to call.

- Okay okay I arrive in 30 minutes.

         She thought about the blonde girl, about their past relationship, about all the happiness she had with her, during all their memories together, like no pressure from management, publicist and all this kind of persons who directed your life like it was theirs. She felt nostalgia about the time when everything was simple, no paparazzi waiting outside of her house, yelling awful things that you weren’t prepared to hear. Of course she loved Taylor, there was no questions about it, every pores of her skin screams for her touch, but every other aspects of her life were a turn off constantly. One time they were alone, outside, doing shopping for Taylor’s, it had been a long time since they saw each other, and they hugged to say goodbye, and unfortunately Karlie rubbed the older girl’s back, after the single video posted on youtube. It had been the third world war, like Tree calling both girls to tell her to not be seen together for a month, yelling at Karlie like she was a baby, saying horrible thing to Taylor about losing her career, her fans, everything she loved. The green eyes girl wasn’t supposed to live like that, she was young, naive, not enough mature to understand every little things who depended of Taylor. 

         Now it wasn’t her problem anymore because after this morning, she thought that the older girl didn’t want to see her again. She was lost in her thoughts when she heard a knock on the door, she quickly stood and walked to it, opened it to discover Toni, being a sunshine in front of her. The blonde girl paused for a second and asked « oh my god Karlie, what happened, you look miserable, did somebody hit you on the face? ». Karlie made a sign to the girl to come inside and closed the door behind her, then she sat on the couch and the blonde girl sat too next to her. She whispered almost inaudibly and asked « if I explain to you everything, you will not judge me, promise me to not judge me ». The blonde girl let out a deep sigh and answered « of course Karlie, you are my first love, of course I will not judge you, i promise », with this words, she rested her hand on Karlie leg, just to show her careful presence. Karlie let out a pain noise, the hickeys in this area were deep and painful.