Karlie, Toni and Taylor

Chapter 7

there are three chapters and this little story would be finished.        

        Taylor felt pointless, without any energy left in her, Calvin went directly to the bedroom, changed his clothes to put some sweatpants and t shirt, then he approached to her, and said in a calm and soft voice « I think you should change yourself, do you want me to help you with your dress? », he was sorry. Taylor nodded and they went to her dressing room, he unzip her dress, tenderly and when she was in underwear, he whispered « i'm going downstairs, I will be on the couch ». His warm breath on her ear and floating to her neck made her feel a little better, not totally alone, and the fact that he understood and wasn't taking advantages or rushing things was a proof that maybe he changed. But was it enough to have a relationship with him? Because Taylor felt safe with him, like a rock she was attaching to hardly to not drown. He had been respectful and everything so she needed to take a decision, him or Karlie, because the pain caused by the view of the young girl and Toni made her realize that her feeling wasn't evaporated or absent. 

She still loved Karlie with every inch of her body, with her entire heart. Could she fight for her and win her back? Is that even possible? And in the other side of her mind, there is Calvin, she liked and enjoyed every moments spent with him, like a ball of oxygen, laughs and joy, but is it real? wasn't it just to protect herself, to prove herself that she could live without the younger girl? to prevent any more pain to come, to feel happy in someone else's arm but she wasn't. That was the difference, feeling happy like everything around her went perfect, but in the inside she wasn't, she still felt empty, without future, without plans going to her head for it. Like she didn't see herself with the man, growing a family and all of this, because she didn't love him as a soulmate, as the half of her heart. She was still in her underwear, lost in her thoughts, trying to understand the situation, what was the best choice to make but she needed to see Karlie, to talk to her, because what was the goal of choosing her if she wouldn't reciprocate it.  

She put some pyjama on her and went downstairs, she didn't feel great to face Calvin, she was sad, exhausted. He turned his head to her and said « come here, come sit with me so we could talk ». She walked near him and put herself under the blanket, she rested her head on his thorax, and he put his arms around her, she started « I have something to s-« , he cut her sentence and said « I know, you don't need to say anything, I understand, the time isn't right, and all of this was at the start a fake relationship, maybe myself and you get lost in it, but tonight I saw the pain you had and I realized that you are still in love with her, but I really like our dynamic, how we work together, how we help each other, I just hope we could still be friends, you know because I really like you, in everything you represent, the strong and the weak woman and how creative you are. » Taylor was now crying on his shoulder and she felt his two arms around her, she let out a loud sigh and in a cracked voice and humid one with the tears fallen from her eyes « thank you for everything and especially thank you for being here and understand. I wish I had met you before her because you're one of the most surprising person I met, I thought you were a fucker » a little laugh escaped her mouth « but you're the opposite of that, I don't know if it was for your role that you play or it's a real part of you but I really like it. ». 

He took a deep breath and confessed « well, I wasn't someone good before, and I regret it but when I saw you and your weakness, it makes me realize that feeling exist, love exists, and it's beautiful, seeing you put so much of you into your songs, writing them, thinking about the melody of it, it's incredible. You opened my eyes on the simple things in live, how it's good to take a vacation with someone without doing parties every night and being wasted and fucked new girls all the time ! ». Taylor smiled at him, looking at his face, his eyes were watery, he was emotional, knowing it was the end of his beautiful dream, she put her hand on his face, caressing his cheek and said « now that you're the perfect man you will find your princess, don't doubt about that! I will help you ! ». They shared a little laughs, a sad one, a nervous one and he exclaimed « well I will help you with Karlie ! ».