『Eren p.o.v.』
I have just returned to my room after giving my love another rose. I silently sit down on my bed and lay my cain beside me. Thunder making itself known. Rain starts pouring loudly yet I dare not look. Every time I look out of a window, I see Levi in front of me taking the bullet for me. If only I had been strong enough, smart enough, quick enough, he could have been saved. This would have never happened. The thunder grows, reflecting my pain. Would it be cruel of me to admit I haven't cried since that day? Long time, huh. I sigh and look in the mirror at my pitiful reflection. Cheek bones showing, it's like I'm a walking skeleton that cannot die. I am not too thin yet I am not skinny and healthy looking either. I feel my heart growing heavier every time the thunder rolls. I finally grow the courage to look out the window. When I do, the memories come back like a flood. Yet I do not look away. I watch them all, and once they are over I'm left staring at the rain. I feel a wet drop on my hand. I lift my hand to my face in shock. Tears. I'm crying. I close my eyes, trying to stop them but they start pouring from my eyes like a river. I break down. I start throwing anything I can grab and pull at my hair, all the while I am uncontrollably sobbing and screaming. Lighting shows itself as my screams ring through out the castle. I am a truly horrible person. I can't even save myself so how can I save my love? I am a worthless being, trash. I'm so despicable and cheap. My mind continues to over flow with negative thoughts as I cry. I can't seem to stop. I snap my cain in half, the last thing I haven't broken. I fall to my knees on the floor, not hearing Hanji come inside. Nor did I hear her call out to me. All I hear is my heart breaking, the sound if the rain pouring endlessly like my sorrow and pain. I get up, ignoring everyone and everything. Stumbling to the window I shove my head out in the Rain and look out towards the forest. I remember Levi always seeing the forest and saying, "Look at those big ass trees." I smile at this. The smile soon fades away like my will. I scream out in frustration, sorrow, loneliness. I'm so utterly alone it's almost laughable. It's as if life is a sick joke for me. Can no one help me? Am I beyond all reach now? Have I truly lost my mind without my love? I must have. I am sure of it now. I throw up my own stomach acid and whatever I drank, seeing as I don't eat. Hanji patting me on the back speaking soothing, almost comforting words which I ignore. I need this pain. I deserve it don't I? For what I've caused to happen to Levi I deserve this pain. After all, I'm not human, I'm not sane anymore right?
〔Chapter 3 Trees〕
Sorry again for not updating. Spring break and stuff. Hope this chapter wasn't too short!! Comment and vote! Thanks for reading!! Love you guys! Heh.
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Fanfiction{Sequel to Let Me Be Your's} Eren in his new form is running The kingdom. Levi is stuck in his eternal slumber. Eren hears of a witch doctor Outside of the village that can wake Levi. Will Eren be able to bring Levi back Or Will he have to live o...
