We walk around the park, meeting up with some friends as we all wander the place. Theme parks are so fascinating, all the electronics that I'll never understand. And also will always be slightly scared of.
The entire day we spend going on rides and wandering around. Quite frankly, I'm really glad to say that I never once left Johnnie's side, I refused to leave him alone. I didn't want to, he's too precious.
But, sadly, we're leaving tomorrow. Johnnie's going back to LA and I'm gonna be stuck in Ohio, without him. My only concern is how we're going to make this relationship work. I mean, many people can do long distance relationships and make them work. But I don't know if I can. I think i get too paranoid too easily and so am scared he'll do something stupid. I'm scared that he's gonna forget about me, find someone better and shove me away like I was nothing.
I stare down at my feet, my smile slowly fading from my lips as all these thoughts consume me. I begin walking slower, Johnnie beginning to drag me forward.
"Are you okay?" He stares back at me, I slowly pull my hand out of his grasp, running away as quick as possible. To where? I have no idea. I continued running, as far and as fast as I can to get away. I hear Johnnie following closely behind me, holding back tears I continue to run until I find a small alley way. I turn down it, slowing down as I momentarily forget Johnnie's still behind me. He grabs my arm, turning me around sharply.
"What the fuck Kyle!?" He spats, throwing my arm to the side. I tremble trying my hardest to hold back the tears that threaten to fall. He stares at me intensly, rage filling him. I break down, tears flood out of my eyes and I fall to the ground. Burying my head in my knees, tears turning to sobs. Johnnie kneals down next to me, lightly rubbing my back.
"Are you okay?" I don't respond.
"Kyle?" Still, I ignore him.
"Kyle, a-are you okay?" He lays his hand on my shoulder, quickly swatting it away, I bury my head in my hand. I wish he would leave and just stop bothering me. But sadly, he doesn't. He continues to repeat my name, trying to get an answer out of me. Until eventually I snap.
"No Johnnie! I'm not o-fucking kay! Just leave!" he jumps at my sudden outburst, fear coming over him. I feel regretful, but I have no time for that. I just need to be alone.
"When you the smile sun shines, so dazzling that it makes me speechless. My entire heart is giving off waves, they will only stop when it breaks."
"What?" I sniffle, looking up in confusion.
"Please don't stop the waves. My love will protect you and won't leave you."
"I-I'm so sorry. I don't know what to do. You should just leave."
"Kyle, I'm not leaving you! No matter what happens, I'm not going to leave. Just tell me what's up."
"It-it's nothing..." I sigh looking over. It hurts to lie to him. But I couldn't possibly tell him the truth, it's just not that easy.
"If it was nothing you wouldn't be in tears, what happened? Why'd you leave so abruptly?"
"Its just that, when we have to leave." I pause, sighing and looking up at the night stars. "You're going back to California while I'm stuck in Ohio, without you. You'll probably find someone new up there. Someone better. And you'll forget about me, about what we had. I just don't think I could handle that."
"I promise you, nothing could pull me away from you. Nothing could ever make me forget you. You are my everything and I don't know where the hell I'd be without you."
"Johnnie please don't." I mumble, small tears streaming down my face. The wind burning my eyes as I stare off. He looks to me and sighs.
"You just don't get it. You don't understand how I feel right now and what I'm going through."
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Will This Be Another Broken Memory?
FanfictionKyle and Johnnie have been best friends for the past few months. But recently they start feeling...different around each other. They're passion for each other continues to grow but neither has any idea if the other even feels the same way. A simple...
