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Chapter 9 - love letters

P.O.V Cecelia Black
Monday was an interesting day to say the least. It started out pretty normally until I went down to breakfast to see my sister. I was planning to apologize to her for being so cold and rude to her. But when I got there, she wasn't there, huh that was strange, usually she was down here by the time I came down. Meh I didn't really bother me. So I put it out of my mind. Classes went smoothly to say the least, but the perfect pink teacher toad was clearly still mad that I stunk up the hallway the night before. I had detention at 6:00 so after classes I had some free time. As I sat in the common room I realized I hadn't seen my sister all day when.... BANG! The common door flew open, I turned to see Eva, makeup smeared down her face, mascara all over her eyes. She looked like what put dad did when he escaped Azkaban. I looked at her confused and then the memory shot back into my head from last night. Yeah she's been seeing Matteo lots lately. Oh. My. God. Why did I say that why did I say that. I stood up ready to fight but all she did was glare at me, turn right around and storm out of the common room. I screwed everything up. It was all my fault. I grabbed my wand and ran out after her. It wasn't meant to be taken seriously, it was supposed to have been just a joke!! I sprinted up the dungeon stairs calling her name. Secretly I had always been faster so it wasn't hard to catch up to her.
"Eva I'm, I'm so sorry." I said keeping a step behind her. I never apologized so I hoped she would accept it fast.
"I'm sorry for everything, I've been a real jerk!!!! Please forgive me!!!" My voice cracked. I was on the verge of tears. She never ignored me like this.
"Yeah you have been." She said loudly. "I have tried to be kind!!! I tried so hard!!! But now what you've done, I can never forgive you for that." She said turning and running up all the stairs. I didn't follow her. In fact I turned around and sulked back down to the dorms. I messed up so badly. I sat down in a corner and started to cry. I didn't mean to ruin my sisters life, it was a total accident!! I shot up. Crap!! I had detention in 5 minutes. I quickly dried my tears and ran back up the stairs. I couldn't be late!!! Wamb!! Omg not again. I went flying backwards and almost down the stairs. Why did I keep bumping into people. I looked up to see Harry. He was red in the face and breathing hard.
"Omg sorry Harry, I wasn't paying attention!! I have detention rn and have to run!!" I said standing to my feet.
"Wait really!! You too!! Me too!" He said picking up my bag. "It's pretty terrible, she makes us cut open our own hand." Harry said showing me his left hand.
"She hasn't, no way!!! What a a a a... I don't have words for it!!!"
"Yeah I know, come on I will show you the way." And just like that me and Harry stormed up the stairs to her office.

P.O.V Eva Black
I found myself slung on top of my bed, crying my eyes out. If Disney has taught me anything, it was to fling yourself on the nearest object when times get tough. So, like any other regular person, I did just that.

It's been a while since I had a good cry. It's been a while since I cried in general actually. But I never really had anything to cry about. But now, oh boy. George had just slut shamed me for absolutely nothing, my sister was being an absolute door knob, and Matteo would leave me alone. I couldn't even go to breakfast this morning because he was literally waiting for me outside the girls staircase.

Slut.

Maybe I was a slut. Maybe George was right. I brought up the strength to drag myself across the room to the mirror. I looked myself up and down. "Slut." I pulled at my skirt, it was too short. I did my shirt up to the top, hiding any hint of cleavage. I whipped away any trace of makeup, and sobbed. He was right. I was a slut. Everyone knew it, and now I did too.

Time skip —————————

I marched down to the great hall for breakfast, only a hint of concealer on my face. My collar was done all the way up, making me look stuffy. I yanked my skirt down multiple times, uncomfortable with how short it was. "Eva? Are you ok?" Matteo asked with a tone of concern.

He only liked you for your body anyways.

I gave him a disgusted look, and sat down in my seat. Keeping my hands clutched together on my lap.

Finally the mail came. I wasn't expecting anything, but a rough looking owl came swooping down at me, dropping a letter in my lap. I tore it open.

Eva.
Please don't me mad at me. I didn't mean anything by it, I like you so much. We can be special. Don't let us go to waste.

- G. W

I ripped it in half. That bastard has some nerve thinking he can just write a letter, not even a letter! And get away with whatever he wants.
I looked over at him and sent my most hateful glare, catching a glimpse of disappointment in his face.

Next morning —————

He sent me another letter. The only difference is this time it was more needy, it was longer, and it was super begging.

Please Eva im begging you. You are the best thing that's ever happened to me im so sorry you are the most amazing girl I've ever met I can't lose you, darling. I've never liked someone this much before. I know I fucked up but it made me realize how much I need you and that no one will ever compare to you. You are so perfect and all I want is to date you.

No guy will ever treat you like a will if you just give me another chance, I promise I'll be the best you could ever imagine I just need you in my life, no other girls could ever compare to you.

Please tell me what your thinking I just can't lose you Eva I like you so much.

- G.W

Wow. He's so needy. Jesus. I looked over at him, still holding it in my hands, and he gave me a hopeful smile, a loving look hidden in his eyes. I looked straight into his charming eyes, and ripped his letter straight in half. Then I got up, and walked away.