It is both a blessing and a curse feeling everything so deeply for you. I tried to stop loving you, so I built barricades around my heart. Found other names to whisper in the night, but you carved yourself into my veins. Even if you meant it or not. I know that you are no good for me. But it is worse without you, even when I try to not want you. I end up needing you. You are my favourite joy, yet my endless pain. I tried hating you, but all I hate is how much I love you.
