Our maknae

CHAPTER 6

bang  pd pov 
i  was already soo happy  even at the thought of meeting jungkook  that when i hugged him i didn't realize that i was crying 
he was soo happy that by seeing him i felt ease at my heart ...but i was still tensed about how his hyungs were treating him and beleive me or not if i found anything bad  i will break their bones,chop them into small peices and drink them up in a soup 

i deliberately  arranged another car only for me and jungkook to observe him and i might say  even though he had a smile on his face but it never reached his eyes.......or i might be thinking too much....but why the hell is he looking soo skinny...is he even eating?there were soo many questions going in my mind i need answers for them 
after we reached at the droom  i immediately grabbed his wrist and pulled him to a room when i asked him about his hyungs  he answered all the questions with a calm and cool mind with a smile fixed on his face that never convinced me,even though  i felt relaxed that his hyungs  are treating him well but i still had a doubt in my heart 
when we came outside the rest of members  were looking at us with such worried and nervous reaction that made start thinking over again 
i just lighted the atmosphere by joking but i decided to observe each of them more carefully so that i can confirm it
we all settled on the dinning table jungkook was on my side and by looking at his face anyone could tell that he was overwhelmed,it was like he was experiencing this for the first time

pd nim-"argh.....soo is  trainings going well?"

everyone looked at me 

rm-"umm...yes its going well,we are learning new things soo sometimes it gets tough for us but             in the end everything goes well because we all are together"

he said that with a smile and it felt generous
i was looking a topic to talk with them about jungkook
when  i saw kimchi rice on the table 

pd nim-"oh my you....jin did you delebrately make jungkook's favorite dish"

he looked confused

jin-"umm....hmmm jungkook liked it so i thought of making it"

i am right, he is confused because he doesn't know which dish i am taking about

pd nim-"why are you acting like you don't know jungkook likes kimchi fried rice"

jin-"oh right!!....jungkook likes kimchi fried rice....here jungkook take some more..."
he was  sweating like hell.....there i something bad that i need to fine 

after dinner i had take my  leave 

pd nim-"ok then now i'll take your leave .....i enjoyed spending time with you all after such a                            long  time,i missed you all a lot 

i hungged each member and went to jungkook

pdnim-" jungkookah .....you know right you can tell me anything with  second thought..if    anything happens please feel free to call me anytime i'll be right here without judging you....hm"

jungkook-"you dont need to worry pd nim i have my hyungs right besides me they'll never let any thing bad happened to me after all 'we are a family ' "

he said it with his usual bunny smile 

i signed and greeted them all with a smile before leaving 

jungkook pov

after pd nim left i turned to face the members 

jimin hyung-"soo this punk really knows how to act huh "

taehyung-"i didn't knew he had a talent as well..... i don't know what does he even do in the training i have never seen him singing or dancing... bet he will be bad at that as well"

yoongi-"just cut this crap i am really not in a mood of all this bullshit.....i'll be get going"

with that everyone left  

i also went straight to my room i didn't bother the members taking because what ever i said it came from my heart  i was just soo happy with what happened today  that nothing could  turn my  mood 
i seated it down on my study table how can i not share such a good day with my friend 
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dear dairy,

today was the day  that i had imagined 
eating food with my hyungs and pd nim like a family
no crying 
no beatting 
noo suffering 
just happiness
no attacks 

everything  went well
how do i express my happiness.....today is the best day of my life. i wish that even for a act but could we not behave like this everyday 
can't  we not act like a FAMILY and be like one

 cant they just accept me.....................am i that bad?

29/12/17

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3rd person pov ??

the way jungkook talked about us today was just soo touching, that sentence 'we are a family'

was  again and again coming in mind,it made me feel soo guilty......i have to do something 
this is not gonna work 
 i have to stop this
i have to talk to the memb-

oh god  what the hell am i thinking  why  i am feeling guilty for him..he is no one to us  
what will the members think of me when they get to know i have this going in my mind

i have to bring myself together

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can you all guess who is that member who is thinking this way 
sorry for updating late i had my exams going on
happy reading 😊
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