Suicidal Love

chapter 1

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Hello for probably almost the whole duration of the Wattpad I will probably stick with kai POV cause I kinda what it to be only how he sees it. but there will be some parts with other pov. but they will be short.
Hope you understand thank you.*****
Also TW for suicide

Kai POV

In class spacing out:

There was this girl, she was so beautiful and popular. Her name was Samantha. NO ONE called her Sam and when I mean no one, I mean if you call her that than you are extremely close. Some people might say dating. Everyone liked ( loved ) her. Especially me, Kai, I liked her a lot. My family is not so rich, because of that I live in a not so good ( house ). She had long brown hair that goes all the way to the end of her back and gorgeous brown eyes. Of course I knew I wouldn't have the chance to date her cause, I am just the loner in the back of the classroom. No one knew my name, how I sounded like, but they all knew how I looked. Black hair, brown eyes and how they described me, very gloomy. I didn't think so though, I felt like a ghost, waiting to be descoverd. I really wanted to talk to her but I never got the chance to. When I go up to her, I start becoming shy and run away before I could say something.
Of course I was ok with this nonexistent relationship.

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(PS the little stars mean that it's a time skip)

I woke up gloomy, my hair messed up I layed in my bed thinking about her. I normally do that but today was different, I had a dream about her that I couldn't quite remember, all I remembered, is us having a conversation together. I always dreamed it would come true, but in never did. For some reason I had this sensation that it would come true today. I want to share that moment together, us being peaceful. I looked over to my clock.
-8:57 PM!!!! SHIT IM GOING TO BE LATE!!!!!

As soon as I saw the time I quickly got out of bed grabbed my clothes that I left on the floor yesterday brushed my teeth and took a peace of bread that was on the kitchen table and a note reading

"dear son I am sorry I didn't wake you up you looked so peaceful I made some toast for an apology.
Love mom"

I smiled and ran of out the house after I read the note. I get on the public bus and sit down taking a quick breather but also being anxious. When I got to school it was 9:20 that meant I had ten more minutes to get to my class.
and i made it 1 minute before the bell.
I also saw Samantha in the halls she looked my way! Thats something that happens rarely.

Class was the same as usual, very boring, i didn't really pay much attention either.

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After classe,
I stayed a little more in the class looking
through the window. When I finally got up there was no one around which was usual for me. I go into the hallway turning to the direction
of the rooftop. It was the only place I could relax get some fresh air. Once I was one the last flight of stairs. I opened the rusting Gray door. And to my surprise there she was. As if I was in that dream. I was so happy until I looked more attentively. She was ON THE EDGE.
Seeming as if she wanted to jump. I couldn't believe it.

(Whispering) -its just a dream. It's just a dream. It's just a dream.

But I understood it wasn't a dream. Panicking I called out her name.
And that's when I realized it was the first time in a year since I spoke at school in front of people. And it was her name.
-SAMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Startled, she turn around quickly which lead her to trip and slowly about to fall.
Ones again I panicked so I started running towards her grabbing her arm and never letting go. I started pulling her up. With all my strength. I was tired already but I couldn't give up I swung her till she could reach the ledge. With our two forces she finally got on to the roof. Shivering she backes up to the back wall. Falling and sitting head buried in her legs. Also traumatized I go to sit next to her looking up at the sky. I turned back to her as she quivers in fear I wanted to ask her why but that would be insensible I wanted to ask her something that wouldn't make her cry so instead I asked her something.

-Are you okay.

She looks back at me tears forming into her eyes. Oh sh*t I didn't want to make her cry what am I supposed to do? do I hold her, no that would be too weird. do I ask her again? that would be pushing it. So I look up at her and what I see is a smile over those tears a smile was it tears of joy, was it her being panicked.
Looking at me she says in a shaky voice.

-that is the first time in a long time that someone asked me that. Thank you. I am fine I suppose being over a ledge is very rare for me.

She looks up at the sky and I follow. Then reaches out and takes my hand in hers. Holy sh*t she is holding my hand are we really enjoying this moment I dreamed of. A long silence is presented by us but I did not mind it and it looked like she didn't either the bell rang so our moment was disrupted. I picked my self up and helped her up as well we go back to our classrooms. Sitting at my desk I was looking through the window. Thinking.
-i was holding her hand her hand.
My dream came true. I didn't really expect the sad part but it happened.

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Sam POV

The wind was whistling on this ledge.
Why did I come here. I wanted to but why did I think of him. He seems so free. He made me not want to jump.
But why......
-SAMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!!!!
did someone just call me Sam I have never heard that voice before. I turn around quickly unfocusing my balance I try to keep myself centered but there was nothing present for me to help myself on I feel the gust of wind changing from hitting my face to charging at my back. I try and hold on to the roof, I'm slipping if only someone would help me this is why I wanted to to jump because no one is here for me not my family, not my friends. I don't even have a real friend. this person I barely even know isn't running towards me. I try and hold on for a little longer but I knew it was done. as soon as I let go, give up. the person grabs my hand I finally regained hope there was someone out there for me. Hopefully. I tried to pull myself back up but it was useless I had no power left inside me. the person tried pulling and pulling and pulling but it wasn't working. I had hope I could see the tears in his eyes he had hope too. so I decided to do something else. I tried using my feet gripping against the walls scraping the windows. Was this really the end. Somehow I didn't want it to be anymore. the sensation of being alone left me. Am I seriously going to die, this person was so kind to me but am I going to ruin their lives because of this mistake. I couldn't think any longer I tried gripping and gripping he tried pulling and pulling. but it wasn't working. finally in my last bit of power. he reached out and grabbed my other hand. we tried going back to the roof and it worked I was moving so slowly but it was working quickly after I was back on the roof finally not dangling from that ledge. I was so light-headed that person saved me. I didn't know what to do, scared of that rooftop I went to the nearest wall somewhere that I can be far from the edge. I sit down not quite crying I wasn't sad I was happy someone tried saving me and succeeded. maybe there was hope I sat there in silence not knowing what to say it was quite an awkward moment between us. I did almost die so I didn't expect much. I saw him trying to say something but it seemed as if he thought it'd be too weird. finally he lets out a sight. asking me if I'm okay. this shocked me no one ever asked if I was okay no one cared. I looked back at the person trying to indenify who it was.
It was.......

Him?!

thanks for reading chapter one this is still a work in progress but im happy of how this turned out!!