Paging Dr. Kim

Chapter 20

Short chapter but I didn't want to leave you hanging....

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"I don't like talking about it or thinking about it"

"I promised you transparency.. I thought you'd do the same" he shook his head as he dragged his thumb around the rim of his coffee cup.

"I am now..honestly. This is the only thing I've withheld"

I was scared that he would leave me. He sounded so disappointed in me. I can't even say it was an accident.. I told him just enough for him to know what a douchebag Vince was, but not enough to be fully honest.

Not even Kookie knows how many times he had actually put his hands on me.

"I'm sorry" I said in a hushed voice as the tears started to sting my eyes, I knew I was going to cry and I was hoping I could stop the tears from coming.

"How many times?"

"More than once.. I'm not sure how many though"

"Daily?"

"Weekly"

He nodded at my words and kept his head lowered.

"Are you okay? Like..mentally? I know that its traumatic, I know it takes a long time to get over but do you ev-"

"I'm okay" I nodded and wiped my cheeks "I don't think about it, honestly. Kookie helped me a lot in moving on and grieving the baby, and as far as the physical part, I know that it was him, and had nothing to do with me. I only don't like talking about it because then people look at you sadly, treat you differently" I shook my head "I can't stand that. I want normalcy, not pity"

He nodded "I can understand that"

"I don't blame you if you don't want to be with me anymore, or not want me to move in anymore"

"Charlotte Elizabeth Johnson, are fucking crazy?" He said dramatically making me bite back a giggle "you're packing your shit and will be moved in by the end of the week"

"Okay" I smiled "thanks Jinnie"

"I love you Charlie. When you love someone you don't just call it quits over something like this" he shook his head "I can understand why you didn't want anyone to know, and why you didn't tell me until you had to."

"I love you too Seokjin" I smiled.

"Come here" he patted his thighs, I got out of my chair and walked over to sit on his lap, I straddled him and buried my face in his chest as he held me tight "I wish I could have met you sooner and prevented that shit from happening, but I can't. But I can promise you, it will never happen again."

"Thank you" I kissed his neck and tightened my arms around him.

"So, with that out of the way, do you remember telling me you want to have my babies?"

"Oh jesus" I giggled as I hid my face in his chest while he laughed his ass off "one day I want to, that's for damn sure" I mumbled as he ran his fingers through my hair.

"And marry you"

"Yes" I mumbled making him laugh again as he held me to his chest.

"I want that too" he kissed the top of my head, the warmth I felt from his words spread through my whole body, filling me with a happiness I didn't think was possible "I can't wait for you to be moved in."

"Me either" I smiled "you know what else I remember?"

"Hmm?"

"You said we could fuck in your office"

I giggled while his ears turned red and he started laughing.

"I did, didn't I?"

"And you're a man of your word right?"

"I am" he chuckled.

"Fuck yes!!!" I laughed as he leaned in and kissed my lips.

"You are so gonna get me fired"

"Not if we don't get caught" I smirked as I leaned in and kissed his lips again.