Is it Right? | PJM ✅️

Chapter 2

****Introduction****

~Natasha's POV~

Hello I am Natasha Sharma. I am Indian. 23 years old. Unfortunately housewife also a mother of 2years old. Most importantly I am an BTS Army. I love dearly all 7 of them can't imagine my life without any of them but my Bias is Park Jimin. Well he is more than just my bias. You will get to know gradually. Also why I said unfortunately you will know. I was graduated at 20 and after sometimes I got married to my classmate Rohan Sharma. Well it was not an arranged marriage to begin with. We had a long term relationship of like almost 7years. You can say we are school - sweethearts. But tragically enough I lost my mother while I was in college and keep a young girl safe in this world specially unmarried and in town or rural areas of India is not a very easy job. Also my father lost the faith on him and was very broken when my mother left us. So in the fear of anything might happen to him as well he thought I should get married then I can be in safe hands mentally, physically and also socially. So he arranged the marriage of me and Rohan.
But that's when I started turned totally upside down emotionally. I was already in depression when we lost my mother. Also for this marriage. Rohan's family was not ready as he was "too young". Rohan also didn't reciprocated with me well. All these effected me emotionally. I became numb. I started loosing the love I had for Rohan in my heart but as everybody already knew and it will be a big issue in our society which can break my father more that's why I didn't say anything and got married. I thought it maybe having a monotonous life is making me think that I am falling out of love with Rohan. Also his family indirectly showing me that I am the reason for their son's life got "doomed". I was virgin before marriage. I thought it would be so exciting having the first night with whom you love. But there wasn't much emotion in my heart by his touch. But after a few months when I found out that I am pregnant I thought now everything is going to be alright. It's nothing. I was denying continuously that I lost my love and emotions. But I was happy. After nine months my daughter was born. She's an angel. Her name is Asha which means hope. Because she was my hope. But gradually I accepted that I fell out of love fully.
Gradually our physical contact also becoming loose. Once a week gradually it became once a month, once every two - three months then eventually it stopped totally. I just became a caretaker of the house, in-laws and a mother of a baby. That was also I can't fully have the right as a mother on my daughter. I lost everything. I was empty. I couldn't share anything with anyone. I had a best friend once but she eloped with someone nobody knows where she is. I can't share anything with my father the choice of the boy was mine. I was broken, depressed, in immediate need of help. But couldn't get. Living like a zombie for like a year I finalized that I wanted to end this shit. I also started to look a way to kill myself. I really became suicidal. I lost all hope, all emotions everything. I was just like a zombie. That way one day I was listening to some random songs on YouTube. I really didn't care what I listen or watch as I was like *whatever I don't care* I can't concentrate on anything also can't feel myself as alive human. So something was playing. Then automatically played which was recommended by YouTube was "Blood Sweat and Tears". Well you bet while started I can't understand a shit as without Hindi, English and some regional Indian languages every language is an alien language to me. Please don't get offended but I can't tell a difference between what's French and what's Italian, leave foreign languages I can't even differentiate between the whole South Indian region languages. Well I am a dumb ass you can tell by that.  I stay like a typical desi goody two shoes girl. I couldn't say no to anything. Never asked anything from anyone.
Again to the point. When I heard Blood Sweat and Tears I felt something. I listened it. Also I was liking it? Oh. I forgot the feeling of liking. Then I think I should hear more of that. Then YouTube automatically played "Fake love". I immediately turned my gaze to that magical tune that YouTube played. I saw 7 guys no I felt they are 7 Angeles dancing with exact perfection, coordination, synchronisation and grace. The melody was playing not only on my ears but on my heart. I read the title and found out that it was from BTS. I thought just want to know who is who and to know their name. But I totally fall in love and became an Army.
So that's my story.