Now Heaven walks on earth

Looped into the darkness

I still felt as if I was being dragged downwards, it was cold, I couldn't feel my fingers, where am I? I couldn't even see the moons light, all I could see was blackness, it was silent, not even a single fish was seen, how was I still alive? But whatever was dragging me down  it was not some creature from the series planet earth, it was a sea monster. I started to black out again. It felt like an eternity. I saw a flash of light, this must be my destiny now, I must be in heaven, surely. Would anyone miss me? Would they even know I am missing anyway? Probably not, there was a lot of people at the party, would my friends know I have suddenly disappeared?

I suddenly woke up in the darkness. It had swallowed me, there was no way getting out now, the silence was deadly, draining every bit of emotion from me, like as if a devil took my soul. There wasn't even a smell, it kind of felt like being in space. You know when you see those documentaries on the television and they are just in their space suits, no smell, no sounds, no floor. Just floating. It was lonely here, I just want to go home. But there was no where too go, apart from here. Maybe this is home from now on. 

Being alone made me feel uncomfortable, it reminded me of when I was younger, when my mother died, and my father abandoned me, my friends left me because I had no house to live in. That's what silence reminds me of. Ever since I have been in university things had changed, I had a future. Well that's what I thought. I had friends who cared about me. Until now. Even Jackson and Bella were nice to me. 

I hope the darkness will go away, bring the light to me. Hopefully this is all just a nightmare, I will wake up soon, thinking nothing of this petrifying experience. Even if I was to somehow wake up, and tell everyone no one will believe me. I had previously suffered a minor heart attack which led to paralysis. The stress got to me. Maybe this is a punishment. I don't want to go to hell. It seems to be a place where bad people go, the souls that get tortured there. 

The pressure intensifies, my eyes started flashing black and white. It felt like being on a rollercoaster ride, the loop to loop kind of ride. I was used to that, I loved being in the theme parks and going on the theme park rides, my ultimate favourites were the huge water slides, where the floor just disappears underneath you're feet, then in a matter of seconds your at the bottom of the slide ready to go again. I missed those summer days when my mother was alive and father was still around. I wish things were the same. But life is just cruel sometimes.

I must be in some sort of portal, it went white again, then I heard a voice, it sounded like my mothers voice, then again it went dark I couldn't see. I tried to speak, but nothing came out, I could hear the voice again, but a voice of a little girl. It sounded like myself when I was 4 years old. The giggling and the crying. Happy and the sad. Energetic and the sleepy self. 

I wish I was young again, then maybe I would never have met these wonderful people, then I would still be alive. I wouldn't be in this situation. Perhaps if I just go to sleep then all of this would be over. The darkness will go and I'll be put back on the beach again. Right? 

I close my eyes, hoping this will be all over. I feel some wet hands grab my ankles, the same feeling I had not so long ago. It's grip was tight, almost cutting off my circulation to my feet.  It pulled my feet from underneath me, and again with the loop of me being dragged down into the ocean. The feeling of drowning was terrible, but somehow I was losing the feeling of drowning. I as getting tired of this endless loop. Eventually I stepped back and did not walk into the sea, I think I have finally broke the loop. 

I was no longer being dragged into the sea, I see Jackson looking at me from where the lit pool was, he waved and carried on what he was doing. I ran back to the pool and next to Jackson. He didn't look at me.

"Hi Jackson, where is everyone?"

He didn't look at me, I am guessing he was too busy, so I looked back outside and there I saw staring at me, was a person, with  long fingers, very pale looking, she had short blonde hair, her mouth was stitched, her eyes were no longer in her sockets. She wore a white skirt and a white shirt with a tie. She pointed at me, everything suddenly started to slowly disappear around me, leaving only the darkness. But only the sound of the waves and the people laughing from the party. I couldn't see anything, I suddenly felt a hand on my shoulder. I looked behind me and it was the person with no eyes, she widened her mouth and started to engulf me, into the darkness I go. This is a never ending loop into the darkness. I will forever be tortured till I am no longer existing. 

I started to fall into the void, infinitely falling. Nothing will change. The loop is boring, I am sick of it. I wish someone thing could save me. Even though there is no one around, a little bit of me still has hope. I fall asleep again, waking up too something that I could never imagine I would see in my life, it was a place that I was happy to be in. I hope I would stay here, a little bit of emotion was still in me. I am glad I still have some sort of hope in me. I stood up I looked left and there was the darkness, I could hear people screaming, fire burning, monsters screaming. To my right there was a field with flowers and waterfalls, and straight in front of me was a golden gate, with clouds and lighted torches. I was standing on sand with water all around me, the sky was blue. Where am I?