When we all fall asleep, where do we go?

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Tired.

Tired were word Callum could describe himself. he has been going all over the world with Alfa Romeo since how long. It's been fun, stressful but worth it by so far.

Sometimes Callum would be busy the whole weekend and forget what day it is. It made him anxious how he lost track of time.

Callum had a relationship also, which wasn't going so well. They argued god knows how many times a week, they stopped saying "I love you", they didn't have sex or stuff.

Callum was loosing it all. He tried so hard to keep it all together, it was hell of a job to him.

Later they broke up. It didn't work out anymore. Callum forgot to tell about it to his friends and family. He was so fucking tired.

Callum was stuck between f1, f2 and Indy Car. He was test driver for Alfa Romeo Racing ORLEN, was a f2 driver for UNI-Virtuosi Racing and thinking of racing in Indy Car next year.

Anyways now he's going into another weekend as a f1 test driver. USA, Circuit of the Americas.

He walking up to Haas' garage. He wanted to meet up with Mick. They've been so busy past weeks that they couldn't hang out at all.

He asked one of the team members from Haas to tell Mick he is waiting for him outside. Just a moment ago he was there standing. "hi" Callum said softly.

Then he was suddenly pulled into tight hug. "Callum..." Mick whispered "it's you, you are here." Callum nodded calmly and they got out of the hug.

"I've missed you." Callum said and looked Mick in the eyes. "I have missed you too boy." He answered and smiled friendly. "Wanna go have some breakfast, I haven't ate since yesterday evening. I just arrived." Callum asked and saw Mick nodding.

Callum was sweating like a crazy under the warm sun of Austin. It was hot as fuck in Texas at the moment. It didn't help he needed to hold himself close to Micks back because they were heading to a cafe to have breakfast or lunch or whatever it was.

When they arrived to the cafe, he saw Mick ordered only a coffee? He didn't know he had ate already. Callum ordered a coffee with a bagel. They chatted a bit and promised to meet up as soon as possible.

When they arrived Callum saw he was almost late so he didn't have time to walk with Mick back to the garages. He just waved to him and started running back to Alfa Romeo's garage.

It was practice time, he didn't even focus on what was happening on the screen in front of him.

He was thinking about Mick. His best friend. He thought he was overthinking why Mick ate when they were in the cafe together. He didn't even tell Mick he had broken up with his girlfriend.

After practices Callum had nothing to do. He was thinking about having lunch with Mick, until he saw him going to lunch with Gina his sister and Corinna his mum. Wonderful. Callum would have to eat lunch alone.

After his little lunch he went to the hotel he spend this weekend. He had no idea what to do, he was tired, anxious, for fucks even horny and hot as hell.

He was laying on his bed scrolling thru Instagram, feeling atleast three thousand feelings at the same time. He wasn't sure what to do.

He felt like anxiety was taking control of his body. He didn't know what would help so he quickly took his AirPods and put them on and started playing the "Beyond The Grid: episode 146 with Mick Schumacher" voice of that boy comforted him on another level.

Callum spend the rest of the day locked into his room. He was struggling again. Struggling to stay clean, it's been a month. Clean from self-harming.

Callum was really good handling problems and stuff but self-harming was something he couldn't handle all on his own. Something he has struggled with since late 2019. After losing his close friend Anthoine.

Nobody knew about it. Too hot showers, cutting, starving, scratching, hair pulling and binge eating but it was a secret.

His thighs full of healed and not so healed scars. He wanted make new ones because the old ones was fading away.

He was ashamed about all the scars he had in his body but he managed to hide them most of the time.

Callum had a restless night again, he couldn't sleep at all.

In morning he was extremely tired, he didn't want to get to track he wanted to sleep but it was qualifying day. He needed to be with the team.

Practice went well Kimi was p13 and Antonio p15. Callum did pretty much nothing between practice and qualifying.

Qualifying was disaster to Kimi he was p18 so got dropped out in Q1 and Antonio managed to make it to Q2 and then got dropped out. He was p13.

After all the work stuff Callum had done, he went to a walk. Walks helped him stay calm and helped him keeping it all together.

Austin was actually quite pretty in daytime. He heard car's driving all around. He saw people walking around, talking on the phone, sipping their coffees, and birds flying away all the sounds of normal city.

Callum didn't really enjoy hot weathers since he had to cover up all his scars but he couldn't do anything to it so there he was. Hot as fuck with sweatpants on while it was almost 30°C (86°F).

Callum didn't know if it's was the hot weather or not but his feelings were fucked. Mick has been on his mind way too much since he has broken up with his girlfriend.

Maybe he had feelings for the German.

Maybe.