When we all fall asleep, where do we go?

9. my strange addiction

excuse me.

Callum heard nothing but Mick's voice and his own name. The room was now full of scaredness. He had just fell back to sleep and now he was awaken again due to reason he didn't know yet. He just knew something was wrong.

All Callum saw was Mick. All sweaty and tears rolling down on those cheeks. "Wow, wow wow Mick what's going on?" Callum never been so confused in his life. He felt like the whole world skipped a day or turned around.

"I- you then we, I.." Mick couldn't get anything that made sense out of his mouth and Callum heard it. "Relax, Mick calm down. I'm here." Slowly and carefully Callum put his hand on Micks cheek and wiped the thousand tears away with his thumb.

He heard the German taking deep breath then began to talk again. Then he started the story "I fell asleep just normally with you like always. Then I woke up you were gone. No one told me where were you and I- Zhou told me that you were- That" Callum knew exactly what he meant.

"Hey sweetheart don't worry, I'm here I won't ever leave you. I promise, I'll always be here." Slightly Callum kissed his cheek. Callum felt Mick relaxing, he didn't cry but still sweating and shaky which was completely understandable. Callum knew exactly how we could calm Mick down.

Callum started kissing along side Micks jawline. It was for sure one of Callum's favourite thing to do. Then suddenly Mick pulled himself on top of Callum and passionately started kissing Callum mumbling something like "I love you" between the kissed.

Callum was getting hard already. He definitely wanted this as much as Mick did.

Then Callum felt those gentle, slow kisses on his stomach. How good Mick made him feel. He didn't even hold his moans and whimpers anymore. Mick was pulling Callum's sweatpants down. Then all of sudden "Callum what are these."

And the whole world went quiet.

Callum moved his legs away from Mick so he couldn't no longer see all of that pain that he had left out of those scars he had. "Callum?" Mick tried to ask.

"Self harm scars."

He felt emotionless, even tho there was a tears falling down on his cheeks. He didn't realize this was going to be the first time Mick would see his scars. When they were about to have sex for the first time together.

Of course they had made out and stuff but in those moments the scars weren't noticeable. Now they were and Mick clearly saw them.

Then he suddenly let it all out. "Callum why didn't you tell me?" Callum couldn't stop crying and it was confusing because he never cried. It was something that barely happened. "Callum, don't cry it's okay I'm here"

Callum felt like he couldn't talk. "please don't be mad I-" It just didn't work out. "i'm not mad of course not, why haven't you said anything Callum i would've helped you. why didn't you tell me you were struggling? Callum you can't go thru this alone." Mick wiped away Callum's tears.

Callum took a deep breath and began to talk "I didn't tell, I didn't want you to be mad at me. It just had been hard time after f2. I'm sorry Mick." Callum apologized. "Callum it's fine, I just don't want you to feel that way, I wanna help you." "But you've been struggling as well, you need to focus on yourself. I'm fine." Mick sighed and said "Callum I'm gonna handle this you've helped me a lot, I wouldn't be here without you. It's my turn to help you, let me help please." Callum nodded and didn't say a word, he couldn't and he didn't need to. Then he kissed Micks cheek.

"Let's go back to sleep, we're both exhausted. I love you my little loverboy" Mick said and kissed Callum. "I love you too, more than anything else."

Callum was satisfied with his life, it was slowly getting better and it calmed him knowing this pain won't last forever. It hurts now and maybe next week and next month even but not forever.