When we all fall asleep, where do we go?

6. wish you were gay

United Kingdom.

Place Callum called his home, even though he had lived three thousand different places. UK was the place he always called his home.

There was everything he needed, his family, mum, dad, siblings and dog. Everyone else except Mick. His second home.

Callum missed Mick so much. Too much.
He called Mick whenever he could, Callum usually got messages from Mick telling he couldn't sleep so they FaceTimed and slept together, listening each other's soft breathing.

They were both exhausted after the hell that lasted three long weeks. They needed to be careful when they talked to each other. Either of their parents knew they were dating and it was so frustrating when he smiled at his phone and one of his family members asked who was he smiling at. "no one, just some funny meme".

Late nights when they called to each other were the worst ones, Callum needed to be quiet as possible. Still Mick always fell asleep when he told stupid stories to him, even if he barely heard his voice.

Callum loved to be able to be with his family and spend time with them. Racing kept him busy all the time.

Even when he was just working with Alfa Romeo it kept him busy enough to not be able to spend much time with his family, so whenever he was allowed to visit his family he for sure did.

And now when he had made it official with Mick between them, he also helped him distract from work that stressed him more than it should.

Callum loved his family more than anything else in the world but there was something.

They didn't know.

They didn't know Callum was into boys in any way, they didn't know he found dudes attractive at all. Especially into Mick. They would probably go nuts after hearing something about them being a couple.

Callum was bad at lying about things but he knew this was big thing. He couldn't just be like "oh I wasn't going to say that" or anything shit. He needed to keep it a secret as long as they were ready to come out.

Callum understood it, he just hated lying. Mick did as well and Callum knew it, but there was so many things they needed to lie about. But it was a big deal. You just couldn't be gay in formula one.

There was so many other things. People thought you just wanted attention, the media would go crazy, two drivers just couldn't date, the homophobia. It wasn't just simply being gay.

Everything was harder than normally, fame didn't make anything easier.

Callum would've loved to have someone to talk to about this but he didn't. He was too scared. Could he trust Marcus enough to tell him they're dating. He knew Callum was in love with Mick but that was everything he knew by so far.

Callum usually talked to his dog. All little things no one else knew.

"you know Mick got those deadly beautiful blue eyes and bright blonde hair. Really soft. His lashes are so long, he looks like a dream."

"He has those big soft hands, strong and stuff. Sounds like an angel with little accent. Even when Sebastian said Mick had no funny accent or stuff but we all know he does have a little accent when he talks English, it's kinda cute you know?"

"He loves training and spending time with his dog, like I do. His dog name's Angie. You could be good friends with her."

Callum fell asleep with his dog next to him. Mick didn't call tonight. But Callum send him a goodnight text as always.

Callum was kinda nervous about the next to races. It would be the two last races for him and the drivers. Kimi was retiring and it "shocked" the whole f1 community. Antonio would go to Formula E. Season ends and after that, it would be next chapter on his life.

Indycar.

America.

Everything was new. The people, the team, the car, teammate. Almost everything was new. Callum knew couple dudes from there. Christian Lundgaard was one, they raced against each other in Formula 2.

Christian raced with ART Grand Prix with Callum's best friend Marcus Armstrong and Callum raced with UNI-Virtuosi Racing alongside Guanuy Zhou who was now taking place in the 2022 formula 1 grid with Alfa Romeo alongside Valtteri Bottas.

That meant he wouldn't be alone in IndyCar, Callum counted him as his friend. Callum was excited about Indy.

Callum's break went slowly but he enjoyed it even though he missed Mick a lot. He always did when he wasn't with him.

Callum ate good food, trained like always. He needed to and it was a thing he enjoyed a lot actually.

He spent time with his family, slept a lot. Talked with Mick. Asked what he did. If his break was a little more interesting than Callum's.

Callum and Mick talked a lot what would they do on break. They clearly knew they needed to tell their parents if they wanted to spend time together. It wouldn't work either way.

But they knew it from the begging that the day would come when they needed to come out to someone.

It wasn't easy but nothing was and Callum knew it very well.

2 days left before he needed to fly to Saudi-Arabia. Would Max be the world champion in Saudi-Arabia? Something no one knew. It was stressful and I te at the same time.

Callum knew Mick loved Lewis but he was also friends with Max since they were babies. Mick and Victoria are both born in 1999, Gina and Max are both born in 1997 so they spend lot of time together back in the days.

Callum loved when Mick told him stories from his childhood. He also told how Max's dad Jos was friends with Michael and they even were teammates if Callum remembers correctly.

2 days went faster than he could imagine. He was now packing his stuff for the up coming weekends. His flight would leave in 11 hours, so he had time.

Callum couldn't wait to see Mick, he promised to pick him up from the airport because Callum would arrive earlier than Mick.

His dad drove him to the airport.
Only 2 weeks.

He can do this.

With Mick.

Callum was stressed out when he stepped into the plane, he didn't even know why. But for now there was only one thing in his mind. Sleeping.

sleeping.