This Sick World (Bucky X y/n)

Chapter 11

It had been 3 days since the team had left. It had been quiet. No noise, and if there was it was the air conditioning. Me and Bucky haven't talked and I didn't plan too. And even if I wanted to I don't think I would have the chance to, considering I haven't seen him the past few days. But then again I've only left my room for food two times a day.

It was currently night time. I looked toward the clock. 10:00. I decided to go to bed and sleep. I shut off my lamp, lied on my back and drifted off to sleep.

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I was in a big room. Men surrounded me. I felt a grip at my arm. I looked down to see a little girl. Fear was in her eyes. Her hair was messy and she was crying. I recognized her to be my sister. Annie. I looked to the left and right of us. Boys and girls were lined up with us. They were all different ages, but all over the age of nine. I was 11. I was scared along with everyone else.

"вы будете нашими шпионами в Америке. вы поможете нам победить Америку всеми возможными способами. ты будешь нашими глазами и ушами.(You will be our spies in America. You will help us defeat America in every way possible. You will be our eyes and ears.)" A man in green and red was speaking to us. I was to become a spy in the Americas for the Russian government. My parents sent us here. They never cared for us.

"Если будет предательство, мы найдем и убьем тебя(if any betrayal is done, then we will find and kill you)." I could not escape. No where to run. Not even if I was many countries away. I would be hunted and killed.

Two men came and grabbed me and and my sister. I screamed and kicked trying to get to her as did she. "ANNIE!"

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I shot up. My breathing was heavy and labored. I was sweating. I was still in bed. My legs were under the covers. It was a dream. A nightmare. I threw off the covers. I stood up and tried to calm my breathing. I looked to the clock. 2:00 AM. My throat was dry. I needed water.

I walked down to the kitchen, making no noise. I flipped one light on so that it was still dark.
I grabbed a glass out of the cabinet and filled it with water. I brought the cup to my lips and took a sip. The water instantly took away my thirst. I downed the whole thing. I grabbed another cup of water and sat down at the counter. My breathing had calmed. My thoughts had not though. Thoughts swarmed my head. Regrets and memories mixed with it. I took another sip over water as if that would help.

I sat for a minute before I felt a presence. Eyes burning into my back. I turned to see none other than Bucky. He stood there with sweat on his face. His eyes were filled with sadness. His hair fell at the sides of his face like he had been gripping it. For a moment I was worried but then I regained my strength. I just turned back around in my seat. He walked to get a glass of water as I had just done. We sat in silence for a moment. "Can we talk?" His voice sounded reluctant.

"No." I stated as I began to walk out.

"We can't keep pretending to act like nothing ever happened." I stopped dead in my tracks,
anger bubbling up inside me. I spun around and looked him dead in the eye. "Ok you want to talk let's talk." I walked over and slammed my glass on the table. " Do you care to explain why you threw my out like you never said you loved me? Or why you said you would NEVER leave me and yet here we are? Go on, I would love to hear."

I looked him dead and the eyes. His once sad eyes flamed with anger. "Why should I have to explain my JUSTIFIED actions. Your the one who betrayed not just me but a WHOLE COUNTRY."

"I had my reasons. But you just threw ME OUT BEFORE I EVEN GOT A CHANCE TO EXPLAIN!" I was yelling now. My chest was heavy with anger.

"I THREW YOU OUT BECAUSE I WAS MAD." He stepped closer to me, arms length. "I LOVED YOU AND YOU EVEN TOLD ME THAT YOU WOULD NEVER LIE TO ME, BUT LOOK WHERE WE ARE. BECAUSE OF YOUR LIE WE'RE NEVER GOING TO FULFILL OUR PROMISES. BUT NOW I DOUBT THOSE WERE EVEN REAL PROMISES." He was screaming right in front of my face.

"HOW IS IT A LIE IF YOU NEVER ASKED? HOW IS IT A LIE IF I WAS DOING IT TO PROTECT YOU? HOW IS IT A LIE IF I KNEW THAT IF YOU KNEW ABOUT ME BEING A SPY YOU WOULD BE KILLED?" My throat was getting tighter and tighter as I spoke. My eyes were filling with tears. "How is it a lie if I was doing it because I loved you?" Our faces were inches away. My eyes were full of tears that were begging to be released. My breathing grew heavier than before. He seemed to be taken aback by what I had just said. "You did this to us. You." I whispered.

His blue eyes now swam with sadness as they did before. The flames in his eyes were now big blue pools of sadness. I turned away and went to my room leaving Bucky behind. I slammed my door and crumbled to the floor. Hot tears streamed down my face. I put my head in my knees and cried my heart out. My breathing was heavy. My body was heaving up and down with every breath. I wanted to change everything. Or end it all. Everything fell on me at once. All of the walls I had built had come crumbling down. I was vulnerable. I was scared. I was angry. I was sad. But most of all I was lost.

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AUTHORS NOTE:
Not gonna lie, I cried making this chapter. Very sad. But hopefully it will get better... right? Well ig you'll just have to wait.

Also sorry for being late on this chapter. I've been working on my other book call My Dark Prince if you want to read that. It's a fanfic about Darth Maul. But anyways, I should be on time for the next chapter, so stay tuned! Love you all!