This Sick World (Bucky X y/n)

Chapter 10

Time went on. I just watched and listened. We had moved to a different room for more privacy. They talked about everything. Everyone having side conversations. Sam and Natasha were speaking a lot, giving each other side glances of awe. I stood in the corner of the room, deep in thought. "Well it's getting pretty late, I think I'm going to bed now." Everyone agreed to Steve. I stayed sitting. They all began walking up to their room except Bucky. He stood watching everyone leave, before he turned to look at me with a deep sadness in his blue eyes. I stood up making eye contact with him. I walked towards him continuing to look directly into his eyes. I walked past him and up the steps to my room. I shut the door. I pressed my back up against the door and slowly slide to the floor. I needed to cry desperately, but tears would not form. I needed emotion. I felt helpless for the second time in my life. I missed the way things were before. I wanted to fix things, change things. My chest was heavy with sadness. Memories tormented me day and night. Thoughts became to much to handle. I was tired and lost.

I slowly got up from the floor and striped my clothes off. I changed and slipped into my bed. I lied on my back staring up at the ceiling. I slowly fell asleep, consumed by the darkness.

A week had passed since the party. Nothing had really happened during the week. Peter was coming over almost everyday. I met his friend MJ, she seemed nice.

I was looking at my phone, trying to figure it out. I was getting frustrated, until there was a knock at the door. I got up and walked to the door and opened it. There stood Wanda. "Hey we have a meeting." I nodded and followed her out of the room. We walked into the meeting room with a few other avengers trailing in behind us. "Ok since we don't have our friend to give us any information anymore." He shot me a convicting look. Which I returned with a glare. "It has taken me a while to find anymore Hydra bases. But I have found some. 2 to be exact. I found one close to Russia and one in Germany. So 2 teams will be going to take each one out." He pulled up a list of names and listed them off. "The team that is going to take out the one in Russia is Wanda, Bruce, me, and Steve. The ones that are going to Germany are Sam, Natasha, Thor, and Clint. He'll be meeting you right before you get there. So with that said Bucky and y/n will be left here by themselves. We're leaving tomorrow at around lunch time and we'll be gone for a week. Got it?" Are you kidding me? I looked to the floor. Anger was building up in me. I crossed my arms. Everyone agreed and walked out along with me. I went straight to my room and slammed the door. Why him out of all people? A fire was raging within me. The only thing that extinguished it was the sadness that washed over me in waves.

I walked into my bathroom to take a shower. I shut the door behind me and locked it. I stripped down. And stepped into the shower. I turned the knob to turn on the water. I was hit with cold water against my back. I tensed up, not expecting the chill. As the water slowly got warmer, I relaxed. I stood letting the water run down my tattered body. I closed my eyes and let my thoughts leave my mind. All my care and regret went away in that moment. I felt at peace. Nothing mattered in that moment. That moment was soon lost when I heard a loud noise and yelling. I quickly finished to go and see what was wrong. I was down there within 5 minutes. My hair was still wet and dripping on my t shirt.

"YOU BROKE MY VASE. I CANT BELIEVE YOU." Tony was screaming at Bucky. This was the most angry I've ever seen him.

"IT WASNT MY FAULT. SAM PUSHED ME INTO IT." His voice was straining. Tony was furious. "I DONT CARE! YOU ALWAYS RUIN EVERYTH-"

I interrupted their argument. "HEY." Their attention was brought to me, both of their faces were slightly shocked to see me standing there. "What happened." My voice was stern and demanding. They both stood in silence, staring at me. "Answer me." I demanded in a cold tone.

"Bucky over here broke my vase." He shot a glare at Bucky and then back at me. "Was it on purpose?"

"Yes" "No" they both said at the same time. They both looked at each other with rage. "Jarvis show me the footage." Immediately a video of Sam pushing Bucky into the vase was put in front of me. "Thank you Jarvis." I brought my attention to the two idiots that stood in front of me. "Say you're sorry to each other. Now." My voice held authority. They both just stared at me for a moment before turning to each other. "I'm sorry I broke your vase." Bucky apologized first.

"I'm sorry I got so mad at you." Tony obviously didn't mean it, but I just didn't want to listen to them fight anymore, no matter how much I didn't like either of them. Tony looked at me and back at Bucky before he walked off with an attitude. Bucky looked towards me. "Thank you."

"Don't think I did it for you, I just didn't want to hear you speak anymore." I said in a cold and heartless tone before waking away and back up to my room to continue my shower.

It was the next day. The day they were leaving me and Bucky alone together. Great. I walked to the meeting room where they were waiting for me. "Ok the two teams will be leaving in 15 minutes so have fun Bucky and y/n. See you guys in a week!" Tony said with a sarcastic tone. He was obviously still mad about what had happened yesterday. I left the room so I wouldn't have to hear another word he had to say. I walked straight to my room and slammed the door. Why didn't I just kill them when I had the chance?