Hidden (Taekook)

Chapter 20: Truth is Out

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Jungkook was at the gym taking out all his frustration on the sandbag. He's been throwing punches at it for more than thirty minutes that he didn't realize that his knuckles were already bleeding.

Jimin barged into the gym door looking worried.

"Jungkook! I've been looking for you for an hour! Have you been here the whole time?! It's fucking midnight!" Jimin asked.

Jungkook just looked at him, breathing heavily.

He looked back at him and then on the wrapping on his hands and noticed the blood.

"What the hell!!?" He grabbed Jungkook's hands and dragged him to the nearest chair.

"What are you trying to do?!" Jimin shouted as he started removing the wrappings.

"Just leave me alone, hyung." Jungkook said as he retracted his hands from Jimin's hold.

"Nope. Not doing that. You sit still as I go get the first aid kit. If you so much as move that ass of yours out of that chair I will leave all your ironman collection headless!"

Jimin went to a nearby cabinet and got the first aid kit.  He went back to Jungkook and started cleaning his wounds.

"What's this I hear about you breaking up with Taehyung?" Jimin asked.

"Who told you?"

"Sik called me.  He told me how you broke up with Taehyung and left him almost having a heart attack."

"What?! Is he okay?"

"Oh, now you care?! What were you thinking, Jungkook? Why would you do that at a time when he needs you the most?"

"Hyung, tell me is he okay?!"

"Yeah, he's fine. Now, what the hell happened?"

"He doesn't tell me anything, hyung! It's hard enough that we're not together right now, but he makes it harder by not telling me about his real condition. He refuses my help, he pushes me away when we promised each other that we will get through the bad times together. I don't know where he is, I can't take care of him myself and to make natters worse he's so okay with Hyung-sik hyung taking care of him. I bet he even knows everything!"

"So, there it is the real reason behind your frustration. You're jealous again!"

"Damn right, I'm jealous! I'm jealous at Sik for being there with him, I'm jealous of you guys because he seems to tell you more than he tells me, I'm jealous of everyone and everything that makes him feel better at the end of the day. Why can't I be that person for him, hyung?! Why can't he make me feel that he trusts me enough to help him go through the hardships together? I don't fucking know what to do anymore. I hate feeling helpless. I know he's in pain and I can't fucking do anything about it because he wouldn't let me!"

"Because you're the most important person to him, Kook.  He doesn't spare us with his burdens, but he spares you from it. That's how he shows his love. He will protect the one person that he loves the most from getting hurt, getting worried, and that's you. He doesn't care if he himself ends up suffering  because he's so used to it.

I know there's some kinda flaw in that kind of thinking, but that's how he is. All his life he has never gotten the love and care that he deserves. He's hurting physically, he had to go through mental and emotional torture from his father, and then you came into his life. Of course he would do everything to shield you from the pain that he's been through.

He has to overcome that fear and you have to be patient with him and let him know that you can and you're willing to share that burden with him, and that no matter what happens, you're not going anywhere. If it seems that he's pushing you away, then pull him back in. Don't let go, Kook. Believe me when I say that he loves you so much and needs you now."