INDECISIVE ✔️

CHAPTER 1

Esther's p.o.v.

It's was just 6 o'clock in the morning and I couldn't feel anymore drained. Mere thinking about the house chores before getting ready for school was exhausting and annoying. It's was Monday for Christ sake, who goes to school on a Monday morning? Monday is an hectic and busy day, student should be able to go to school on Tuesday after so many preparation on Mondays but my Mother, is strictly against it and believes those that skip school or classes are NFA (No future ambitions). As my mother always say :I don't want my children making the same mistakes as me. My mother was an highschool drop out as her mother, wasn't financially sound to support her and this, made my Mom got married in an early age. My mom was just 18 and My Dad 23 when they got married. My Dad who was a cleric Agent and Stable enough to start his family, found my mom, loved her and supported her. My mother always talk about how happy they were;

Your dad was the sweetest man on earth. If we met in another world ,my choice to marry him won't have changed. It's would always be him". She always says. I never met my father, he died same period I was born. Everything was deprived from my Mother. My father relatives claimed she killed their brother, her husband even when they were fully aware he died from a plane crash. I guess they just wanted to pin the blame on someone and my mother , was just as vulnerable. I usually tease her about how old school hers and my father love were but deep down, I always pray for such kind of man. Someone who would love me for who I am but, with a longer lifespan on Earth.

After dressing up in my Royal blue skirt and light blue satin top with a good combination of my socks, I head for school. By this time ,my mother would be at the market stall selling her goods. I closed the door with the padlock and hid it in my back. My smile widen when I saw Nate, his tall figure stood at his house entrance, waiting for no one other than my grumpy self. Nate and I have been childhood friends, he asked me out when I was just six. At first,it's was weird but I said yes, only for me to say no the next day after listening to my mother daily sermon of stay away from that boy. My mother doesn't hate Nate, but she always complain about how queit he was cause to her, queit boys are the most dangerous and Nate dark looks, worsen the situation. Nate is the first guy I'd ever be this inlove with. We didn't attend same school, mine was a government school and his, was a private school since his Dad was well to do. "Hey baby" Nate greeted, making my heart skip a beat. "Stop calling me that " I blush profusely, looking anywhere but him. He move closer, pull my hand in his "We should walk hands in hands, no?" I quirk a brow at him. With any moment he's got, Nate always make sure to remind me what he felt for me. I felt the same way though,but I was scared of my mother's wrath.

I try to free my hand from his, only for him to tighten his hold "C'mon. Let. go." I warned, scared my mother could creep out on us even if she would still be at the market stall. "It's just holding hands. If I was to ask for a kis..."

"–You won't dare" I cut him off. By now, am sure I was already redden like a tomato. I've always dreamt of kissing Nate, I wonder how it'd feel if my lips finally touches his. " I said if. Stop being so uptight and loosen up a little" Was I being so uptight? I know he loves me, would kissing him be me professing my love? What if we kissed and it's ruined our friendship? Yes he's right, Am being so uptight and needed to loosen up. "Am not uptight. Kissing you doesn't fade me " I lie flatly. Nate smirk,making his beautiful eyes brighten. "What don't I believe you?" I shrug, staring at him "You don't believe nor trust anyone" I pointed out as we got to the street junction where Nate's school bus await him. He look hesitant to get on the bus but I usher him in. "Let's meet at our usual spot, we have some unfinished business" He wink at me, biting his lower lips and is that the best sight ever ? I wanted to smash my lips on his that moment and unleash the horny bitch in me but I stood down, and wave as the bus took off.

I couldn't stop my smile, feeling like I just won a lotto. Maybe I did though, a lotto to Nate's heart. I board a bus and head for school with a fluttering heart and redden cheeks. I glare at my old wrist watch, Ohh fuck! 7 O'clock? Fuck!fuck!fuck. Luckily, I  got to school 30minutes later as they was no traffic jam. I ran toward the school entrance and my two favourite person after mom, stood outside waiting patiently for me. "Bitch!You never come this late" Joy my best friend says, unwrapping a gum to chew. "I really needed to come late as I had the most blissful morning" I twirl around, giggling. Joy roll her eyes but Stella suddenly look interested as she toss her notebook in her backpack. "Tell me all about it. Nate again right?" I blush at the mention of his name. Joy snort and Steph giggle. "Never do I wanna hear anything related to that dude" Joy roll her eyes, plugging around her ear a ear piece.

"It's Nate" I corrected her for what seem like the hundredth time. I don't know her deal with Nate, she just doesn't like him at all. And being the blunt person she was, she never tried to hide it. I told Stella all about my morning while Joy looks like she wanted to be anywhere else except with us. I was close with Stella but Joy, she was my best friend and more like a sister to me. She knew me better than anymore. I just wanted her to be happy for me but it's seem like she never would be if it's relate to Nate.

Exhaling deeply, we all head for class.