INDECISIVE ✔️

CHAPTER 3

I was washing the dishes when our home bell rang. Nate. I quickly wipe my hands and rush to  open the door. His hand was rested on the wall and his hazel eyes stare into mine. He was wearing a dark rip jean and a black t-shirt 'FUCK BOY' was boldly scribed on. "...Hey" he popped the 'y' and pull me in for a hug. He smile so nice in his rich cologne making me subconsciously sniff him which he didn't mind. "C'mon in" I gave him few space as he entered the house. It's wasn't his first time in our home but most time, it's was majorly my room when he'd sneak in. "Let me finish with the dishes and I'd join you" I move into our little kitchen"Make yourself feel at home" I yelled out moving to the sink. I was still washing the plates in the other sink when I felt a figure crept behind me. I jumped out  of instinct as I easily get scared. Turning to face Nate who was chuckling mockingly at me. "You scare me !" I playful hit his chest but when I try to remove my hand, he held it tight making my heart race.

Just staring at each other makes me notice how dangerously close we were. I could feel his breath fan my face just after he pull me closer to him. His glance fluctuate from my face to lips as mine followed his movement. Was he going to kiss me ? My heart skip In anticipation. I squeeze my thigh tightly together from how damped wet my pants was. Nate notice my movement so, he rub his hand on my thighs, carefully opening my legs. It's felt like I'd lose balance as I totally lost control of my breathing. "You're beautiful" His low voice made me close my ears, I bit my lips but this time, I couldn't wait around. He wrap his hand around my waist, his 6'1 ft towering over my 5'4. His hand still rubbing my thighs, his finger tips forming circle on my waist as he teases me. I couldn't endure the tease anymore, I just wanted his lips on mine. "Kiss me. Please" I pleaded in between soft moan.what was he doing to me? And why does it feel so good ?

Without warning, Nate slam on lips with mine. It's was rough and needy as I try to fasten my pace. My hand move to his hair, moaning and melting into the kiss. I was doing it, I am finally kissing Nate my first love and I love it. He slowly lifted me on the kitchen counter,our gaze fixed on each other. His hand move in-between my thigh, slowly spreading out my legs, it's went up and up until it's finally touches my pants. I felt my breath hitched, my leg shaky. I have never gone this far with any guy , Nate was my first and I didn't seem to want to stop him yet. "So wet for me" He whisper, slowly pulling off my pant. You need to stop now!

A voice yelled at me but I was so lost, my mind barely mine. I was consume with my arousal, the feeling was so good and I didn't want to stop. I felt something slid into me and I couldn't stop my loud moan. "Sshh. You don't want us getting caught " Nate dark tone remind me but I could barely contain myself. His finger move erratically in me and to subdue my moan, he slam his lips with mine. He was rough and I love it. He keep sliding in and out of me, his gaze darken, filled with pleasure. "You're so tight"he went on his knees before me. I stare bewilderedly, not knowing what he was up to. He trail little kisses on my thigh, moving me to the edge of the counter and pull down my skirt. I was naked before Nate, only still in my shirt. His lips brush my genital and I feel myself shaken. "So sweet" Nate moan, sucking and eating me like I was a delicious tray of foods. My moan was muffled as I close my mouth with my palm. Nate hand move to his trousers, slowly pushing it down. His penis was firm, standing hard and pointing at me. OMG! He's huge. "I want to fuck you so bad" I blush at his word. I never knew I made Nate hard. He pull out a packet and I stare, mouth opened. "As much as I want to feel you and fuck your brain off, we both know we aren't ready for parenthood " My mouth was dry, I couldn't form a sentence . He wanted to have sex with me on a kitchen counter?

"Would you wear it for me?" Nate ask, my gaze was still fixed on his hard on dick.

"Uhm... We can't have sex " I stuttered. "I'd be gentle. You'd actually love this,love." Love?when did he start calling me love? "I'm not ready Nate.I just don't think sex is it for me yet" I explained. "Are you scared of pregnancy?" He entwined his hand with mine "Those are baseless rumours and condom prevents pregnancy. I'd triple the rubber if you're so scared" he tried again but I only just felt disgusted hearing the words roll out of his mouth effortless–why can't I be like everyone else?Girls my age already have experience about it ,why was I so scared?

"I'd love to someday... Probably? But not now Nate. Can you wait? Give me time? If he was disappointed, he never showed it . After a long minute of silence, a huge smile crept up his face. "Of course. We've got the whole time in the world baby. You're mine and am never letting go " He promised, making me kissed him sharply in his lips. "I love you" I blurted out before I could stop myself but I didn't regret it. After what happened few minutes ago, my heart couldn't be anymore decisive. I knew I wanted Nate.

"I know" he smiled, kissing me back. "let's clean up the house, it's smell of steamy make out " I blush but nodded in agreement. I don't know what we are but, I felt at peace .