Drown For Me//Colson Baker

Nine!

You'd think that getting out of an unhealthy relationship that I'd rejoice. That i'd be happy, but it's the opposite, which I feel so silly for. The emptiness and numbness I feel is unmeasurable. But to make things worse, the media has gotten had a source tell them everything about my situation and i'm being dragged and 'cancelled' on all my social media platforms. All my comments are flooded with fans of Petes' bashing me and calling me all sorts of names. Its been repeated in articles on the internet and even in big magazines, and half the facts aren't even true.

Pete took to twitter and tried to help but it only stopped a few of his fans for coming for me.

It hurt at first, but Colson made me delete all my socials off my phone so I wouldn't be able to see them anymore. But it doesn't matter anyways because I haven't gotten out of bed or lifted a limb in the past week it feels like. I feel so lifeless.

I cried so much that I think my eyes were permanently puffy.

As I laid in Colsons bed with the blankets over my head to block out any light source I could, I heard the door open and I suddenly felt the bed dip. The blankets moved and I watched someone crawl under them.

"Do you want to watch a movie with me?" Casie asked putting the blankets over her head to see me.

"Maybe later," I replied making her frown.

"You gotta get out of this bed Valy," She told me as I closed my eyes and nodded knowingly. She thought for a while before coming up with something.

"How about you just sit up in this bed and I bring us snacks and we can have a whole movie marathon. How does some of those movies from the 80s sound? River Phoenix?" She suggested raising her eyebrows. I smiled slightly and nodded at her.

"Stand By Me sounds pretty good." I replied as she sighed before saying, "Good cause that's the only movie of his I know, I'll be back with the snacks."

She left the room and I closed my eyes waiting for her return. And after what felt like a whole three minutes I felt the bed dip again. I furrowed my eyebrows.

"That was really fast," I said before Colson flung the covers off of me to my surprise.

"What's this I hear about a movie marathon?" He asked grinning down at me as I try to get the covers back onto my body. He wouldn't let me have it back so I laid there and frowned.

"You're not invited," I said reaching for the blanket one more time and he jerked it away again.

"Why not?"

"Because It's a us thing dad, kick rocks." Casie said with her arms full of snacks. Colson let out a chuckle and grabbed a bag of cheetos out of his daughters arms and started eating a few. Casie threw the snacks onto the bed and snatched them out of Colsons hand before climbing in between us.

I laughed at his face, "Why are you so mean?" He asked squinting at her.

"Look at her dad" I said jerking the blanket back to me and put it over Casie and I.

"Fine," He said rolling his eyes jokingly as he stood up, " know when i'm not wanted."

"go write a song or something dad," Casie said before leaning close to him and whispering, "I got this, she'll be okay." He smiled down at her before looking at me. I smiled to myself. It felt good to know they are making an effort to make me feel a little better.

We watched a million movies it felt like, Casie made sure it was all the movies she knew I loved. She made as many jokes she could to make me laugh as much as she could. We started watching movies at 5 maybe, and she fell asleep around ten and I fell asleep right after not realizing she had too.