The knowledge of the mind

Chapter 2~ the lecture

Ye mention of toxic controlling relationship

Lauren started to get her stationary ready for the lecture. She was a very organised person and was never ever missing anything. She picked up her pencil case with her colourful pens with then contained to pack her essentials. Lauren felt a small warm feeling of excitement build in her lower stomach. She couldn't help but smile at the feeling knowing this is what she wished her life was like. She look at the clock and it was 8 am. She knew the lecture started at 9 and that there was a 15 minute walk to the lecture.

After getting her stationary packed, Lauren then began to decide on what to wear. She was normally used to wearing a suit or very formal attire as that was the standard at the law firm. She went into her wardrobe and scoped the racks mainly filled with business attire. She sighed hoping to find some normal clothes to wear as she doesn't want to stick out like a sore thumb. She found a pair of baggy ripped light washed blue jeans and a white wrap top which she thought might be too revealing. She decided to layer her outfit as it was January and in London it could be quite cold. She decided to pair the outfit with a oversized vintage white and beige Nike sweater. She then decided to wear her white Jordan air ones. Lauren didn't like to show off brands as she felt it was snobby or like she had something to prove and she knew that she didn't have anything to prove anything to anyone but her self. She wasn't a material girl but did like the designer brands style; if she could find a dupe for cheaper she would. She put on a white lacy bra and a matching thong. She always liked to wear sexy underwear as it made her feel empowered, even more so when it was matching. She always dressed for herself not others as she used to. Her ex boyfriend Ben, used to hate her wearing underwear that wasn't for him and hated her wearing clothes that revealed too much. She felt like an object when she was with him and felt like she had to be dependant which she despised.

After getting changed she packed herself a healthy lunch of brown rice, chicken, broccoli and a green smoothie. She always liked to eat healthy even though it was hard at times. She loved the way looking good made her feel. Her ex didn't like the fact Lauren worked out as he'd always say that "muscles are for men" and "you should just be skinny not muscular" which really affected her mental health. Despite coming off as quite confident, Lauren struggled with anxiety and body dysmorphia and at that point, Ben was cheating and Lauren knew. Instead of being upset she was almost relieved as she had a reason for escaping the toxic hell that she was trapped in that seemed like it would happen for eternity. The thoughts of Ben made Lauren shuddered and she blocked them out as she wanted to concentrate on the lecture ahead. She looked at the time and it was 8:30am. She decided that it was time to leave. But before she did she grabbed her north face brown puffer jacket and a cream thick scarf.

Walking out her flat, she was hit immediately with the cold crisp winter air of January. She snuggled into her coat and scarf to keep her face warm. She enjoyed the winters cold beauty. She saw the frost glistening on the grass which was quite peaceful despite the huddle and bustle of London. She took the directions Lucy gave her and found herself at the block. She walked in and and went up the stairs and found the lecture hall. Looking at her phone she saw she was 10 minutes early. She decided to go in anyways to find herself a seat. The lecture hall was empty except for the professor.

She noticed him immediately, not because he was the only one but because of how he looked. He was tall and slender but still had muscular arms which she could see with his shirt rolled up to his elbows. He wore brown leather brogues with the trademark design, her eyes followed up his body. He was wearing dark navy blue trousers that were perfectly tailored to him. They were tight enough that they fitted but not so tight as to strangle his legs. Although they were fitted it still showed off some features... she darted her eyes quickly away from his groin and continued to trace him. His shirt was fitted  to show of his broad chest and she could see his abs through the shirt. It was a pale ivory that complimented his skin tone very well. His top button was undone which was almost inviting. She looked at his hands, slender and thin, and they were so delicate and graceful. His arms had subtle veins showing almost trying to escape. His neck long but almost fitting for his build. She finally looked at his face. A perfectly chiselled face; his cheekbones and jawline defined. He had stubble but it didn't look messy but almost rustic. He had shortish brown locks that curled perfectly around his forehead. But the most striking thing about him was his eyes. They were a nice between a bright blue and a deep dark blue. It was almost as if they were enticing her saying that he's kind and caring but also dark and mysterious. Lauren had never found herself looking at anyone like this not even her ex who was considered very good looking as girls used to be all over him. She snapped herself back into reality and regained her facial expression. She walked in gracefully and professor was deep in thoughts until he got a wiff of a new scent. It was vanilla and lavender, it was prominent but not overwhelming and was quite enjoyable.

Professor Hiddleston's POV
The scent was new, he hadn't smelt it before; the sweetness was strong but didn't make him squirm in disgust. It was light and airy almost spring like which was ironic as it was winter still. The smell brought a smile to his face almost like had been encapsulated in the spring season. He decided to look up to see where this magnificent sent came from and his eyes met with a girl. She wasn't one of it regular students he knew. She was short but also tall at the same time. She had long legs covered in baggy jeans but he knew they were long. His eyes wandered up to see her dressed in a oversized comfy sweater but he could still see her breasts under them. They were prominent yet subtle which he liked as most of the girls in his class dressed more for a nightclub than a lecture. He appreciated her modesty. He saw her thin and delicate hands gripping a folder. He thought to himself that maybe she was a student of his however, he'd never had a student that smelt not dressed like her before. His eyes continued to discover this new student and his eyes fell upon her face. She had a soft but prominent facial structure almost perfect in his eyes. Her cheekbones defined and high and her jawline sharp but gentle. Her lips weren't too big and they weren't too thin, almost like rose petals. He noticed her long dark curled hair that fell gracefully on her breast. He finally landed upon her eyes and my god were they stunning he thought. She had green and blue eyes almost like the sea, they had all shades of blue from dark to light which seamlessly blended into her light green ring next to her pupil. The shapes in her eyes reminded him of the waves in the sea but calmer. She wore turtle shell glasses with specs of purple which complimented her eyes. He couldn't help but he entranced by her beauty. He reminded himself he was a professor and these thoughts were unprofessional. He shook his head to dampen his thoughts and decided to walk up to her to see who she was. The closer he got the more beauty he could see. She had these small freckles, not many, that were dotted perfectly across her nose. Her eyelashes long and fluttery but he could tell they were natural. As he finally got closer to her, he tried to push his thoughts down in case he ends up saying something he shouldn't.