I'm Sorry
By: Jodie
Word count: 197
Warnings: sad and angsty yayyyy
Note: set modern day
I lied. I lied to the whole world and they believed me. My own brother believed me. I used to think he'd know when something was wrong but clearly not. He just accepted that I was 'sick' and moved on. I'm not sick. In fact, I've never been better. I've been struggling with Bon's death for over thirty years. I know my brother was dealing even worse than I was because he and Bon had something. We slept together once but he told me he loved my brother. I couldn't understand how my brother could get so lucky. When Bon died, a part of me was relieved but I knew that wasn't fair on Angus. So I pretended to be okay.
I wish I'd thought of this earlier. Pretending to lose my memory was the best thing I've done. I left the band and started over. Bon's death still hurts like hell but I feel much better not being constantly reminded of him and Ang having something special. I know I hurt everyone by doing this but it had to be done.
