HAPPY NEW YEARS!WHOO HOO!
Update on First Jan,2014!
Hope you people had an amazing 2013 and heres to an EPIC 2014! :D
Thanks SOO MUCH for all the lovely comments guys, honestly I had written a part of this already but didn't really have the time or motivation for that matter to complete it and so this is a huge thanks to you guys for EVERYTHING.
I'd like to especially mention
@Deeks13 , @FTale2001 , @kaybabe21 , @BieberzBiotch99 , @Emilyxbby9 and @dinky2017 for leaving comments in this previous chapter which was one of my main motivations to write this chapter on new years day! Thanks guys <3
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I was so furious then.
I had absolutely no control of my actions and punched Ty with all with all my might. In that punch I put in all the anger that I had bottled inside me. All the hatred towards Charlie for ruining my life,All hatred towards mom for being anything but my mom and the most furious was towards the two people in the world I loved the most,Hell they were the only people I actually cared for and in that moment they'd betrayed me.
Alison screamed for help and tried blocking me but I just pushed her against the wall she fell against the wall and blacked out blood rushing. Tyler's eyes widened and tried to block me. He was pretty strong but in my state of fury nobody could stop me.
They.....They were together. Saying that stung me...My head was spinning and I wasn't thinking clearly anymore
I punched him in his face and blood spilled out from his lips.
Those same lips that I treasured for almost three years. The same lips that were on Alison's moments ago. My eyes darkened in fury and I lifted my hands to deliver one last punch when someone caught my hand.
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"You alright Jess?"
Justins' voice broke me out of my reverie. I didn't realise I was clutching the glass so hard. For days I was really angry with him for stopping me from delivering that punch. I was even more pissed that he was actually able to refrain me but looking back at it now i realised that even if what they did hurt me I knew deep down in my heart I would never forgive myself if something If I really hurt them.
Yes they'd hurt me and that time I felt like I'd been hurt beyond repair , like this was a deep,deep pit in which I'd fall only deeper into, no way to escape.
He calmed me down that day and immediately drove me away from there. For days he was very cautious around me like I was a grenade that would burst any moment but he never judged.
Not once.
He never looked at me like he was afraid of me or like I was a criminal. I had expected that because what he witnessed must have changed his opinion about me but no.
Maybe I'd been too strong. Even the strongest person can be broken. I realized that not crying didn't make me strong , it made me a great deal weaker because to cry would be to acknowledge and I was a coward.
I had tried convincing myself that I was brave, strong that I could handle anything and didn't ned anyone. Maybe, it was my moms abandonment after dads death that turned me into such a cruel person. Maybe, it was the constant judgment I recieved from total strangers that turned me into something I myself loathed.
But just maybe, I was trying to blame others for the destruction I myself had caused to me.
Becoming a gangster wasn't fate it was choice.
Isolating myself from the people who loved me wasn't what I was forced to do,It was a choice.
Kidnapping , attazking becoming this cold, cruel , judging person wasn't what anybody did to me, It was a choice.
My choice.
I realized I could continue blaming others but that would only finally in the end lead to self-destruction and I knew I couldn't redo the past but I could change my future.
"Jessie?" I smiled as I heard that familiar voice and turned towards Justin who was watching me with a questioning look.
"Thank you J."
He looked at with a confused expression. His expression was cute ,almost childlike.
"For..for everything..thankyou for saving me from the monster I had become, for reconnceting with that girl who was once daddys little princess, thankyou for teaching me to love myself and for...just being there...Thankyou"
He gazed into my eyes and smiled. One of those rare genuine ones. He leaned in and looked into my eyes "Jess...theres something I want to tell you..I.."
I suddenly felt him freeze as his eyes widened in shock, I followed his gaze and for a moment was paralysed..A very fimilliar face was at the door his lips curled in a cruel smile
" Hello daughter dear"
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PLEASE READ! IMPORTANT.
I am NOT skipping all the parts and skipping to the very end, do not worry lol!IWhat sort of writer would I be if I did that? But as the title suggests it IS part one of the ending chapter.
What am I going to do you ask? Well my next post is not going to be part 2...it's going to...ahh can't ruin THAT surprise now, can we? ;P
HAPPY NEW YEAR ONCE AGAIN! <3
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