The Mafia Heirs

- 14 -

Warning: Bloody content !!!! will appear in this Chapter but i will let you know before it happens with an Warning sign . 

- I Can't Do it -  

- Xavier's Pov -

After i seen that picture i couldn't close my eyes for the entire night and so couldn't Jessie so we watched some Christmas movies for the entire night until we both fell asleep without knowing it that we did . That Picture showed Erol's sister who we all thought died many years ago . I was a kid when my Parents announced her death . Carol Santiago that was her name . She was a very smart woman as i heard and a good leader of the St.Snakes too . So i just couldn't imagine that she didn't know about Lilly's family or how she didn't die after what happened to her . I only heard story's from my family but we doesn't have anything to do with Carol's wired death . Jessie wasn't able to sleep last night because she known that if she fell asleep the next day she has to kill her family because they betrayed us . When i woke up today it was 06:10 and she wasn't next to me so i began to panic but then i saw her sitting on the chair outside on the balcony with a blanket over her and she watched the stars on the still dark sky .

Jessie : I don't wanna do it Xavier 

She muttered as i sat down next to her wrapping the blanket around both of us .

Xavier : I know baby but you have to and i really don't have a say in this 

Jessie : I know and i'm not blaming you but it sucks because i can't do it....i'm not strong enough to do it 

Xavier : Sometimes we aren't strong enough to deal with things we know we have to deal with but in the end we have to do it because we don't have a choice....all i'm trying to say is that we don't have a choice in life Jessie we can't choose who we wanna be or what we can and can't do it's their choice and rules and we have to blindly follow it that's how the Mafia works baby

Jessie : Can i ask you something ?

Xavier : Yes baby of course 

Jessie : Why didn't you leave this life and don't tell me because there wasn't an excape door because there is always one trust me i know it 

I sighed and placed my head on top of hers .

Xavier : Because this is my life and i would die without doing all this cold and bloody shit i'm doing and sadly Ryder has to take over one day and he has to do the same as me 

Jessie : All i wanted for my babies to grow up normal but that never happened because all of them fought in their old school and they too much like you 

I chuckled and kissed her had while playing with her ring that i gave her .

Xavier : We all belong in this world baby and no matter how much we try not to we where born to be leaders and there is noway that somebody or something is gonna push it down or change it it's like a drug addiction that always comes back no matter how hard somebody tries to push it away.....all the fighting and the joy in seeing somebody suffer that we hate makes us happy...

Jessie : I wasn't born into this world but i'm still here why ?

Xavier : Because we are soulmates and i'm sure as heck that Ryder's soulmate won't be born into this world either but she has to deal with it just like you deal with me and my stupid shit 

Jessie : Said it right 

She joked and we laughed .

Xavier : All am i saying is that even if we somehow  excape for a while this world is never gonna leave us alone until we come back or die.....there isn't a door for those who where born into this world baby and we all have to deal with it