Aaighnly POV
- shit shit shit
Why is it always me?
I try to be the best all the time, i try to work harder than anyone else, i pass all my tests i do all my homework, i go to training every day, i cook, i clean, i wash the dishes
Why me?
Why do i get beaten everyday by the person that i thought was meant to protect me
Sucks to be me huh?
Sometime i wish i could just disappear into thin air
And never come back
Anyways
I found a new discovery today... Which is good..I guess...
I discovered that i am officially depressed
I never really knew or have an idea of what it meant to be depressed
I just thought it was a feeling of sadness and being unloved or something
But no
Its much more complicated than that
Being depressed is not only mental but its also physical
Right now im mentally and physically tired
I wanna disappear and just end it all
I dont think i can take it anymore
Fuck i feel like crying rn
But i won't
I feel like nobody cares and even though i wanna talk to someone, i feel like they would only listen just for the sakes being and not that they generally care or even want to listen
*Im really really trying not to cry while writing *
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK MY LIFE RN
HOW DO PEOPLE NOT CRY!!!!
BECAUSE IM REALLY TRYING THERE ARE A FEW TEAR HERE AND THERE
I NEED TO GOOGLE HOW TO NOT CRY
anyways
I know im not gonna end it because even though i am a coward (a huge one for that matter) i dont want people to see me as one
Call it self respect or pride i dont care
I know that this is all gonna be over and that sad times only last for bit until ur happy again
And i know that in 3 year i will be gone to uni and i will be out of everyones hair
Can't life be a bit nice to me and go really fast?
Well of course not, cause God has favorites and unfortunately im not on that list
Thank you for reading ❤️
I cried a lot while writing this because i took most of it from my diary cus i thought it would make the book a bit better😂
And honestly ive been feeling a lot like this person in the book was feeling
Anyways thank yall Loveiess❤️
Words :429
Bye
- Lee
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