My Love, Is you

Chapter 4✔️

Feelings ♥️

I feel that something inside my heart. The strange feeling is decorating on my heart, why it beat so fast? I'm so new with this, it is my first time that my heart want to jump out.

' It is what they say crush or whatever this I know there is no wrong about it. The first feeling I cultivate it was normal.'

I answer my self, just to give my self a justice to the awkward situation I had. They said crush is normal to my age, and having a crush on him is not wrong, as long as I keep it on my own and made it my inspiration, but secrets not for my mom and dad.

As I promised to my dad I pay a visit to him at the hospital. Because I want to support him, I really know his is restless days now. How I wish the doctors are coming back for my Dad to get a good rest.

"hello dad how are you." I ask my dad with a smile on my face after I open without knocking on.

"ohh my giant baby, I'm so happy son to see you, it was great day for me, and you how was your school?" he ask me.

"I'm good dad, we had new teacher at school because Ms. Cha is giving birth. Dad where is mom." I ask him.

" She is going here now and we go home together, because your aunt Sam and uncle tin is back, I can rest now at home." He said, while I'm looking at his tired face my heart is hurting that much.

In a few minutes my mom is arriving at the office with a big smile plastering on her face. She walks like a model in my eyes.

"hi son, how was your day? is your day is fruitful or not?" my mom exitedly ask me while she open her arms fir me.

"Mom........ my day is always fruitful and great." I kiss her. "Mom, dad can I ask you a silly question. If it is okay?" I added.

"sure go ahead we're listening to you." my supportive mother said.

"dad, mom. What can you say about homosexuality, in your own opinion.?" I ask both of them.

"son homosexuality is not a wrong sexual oriention. It is on how the society accepts it, but you know son. Sexuality is not a matter as long as the person is happy on what he or she did. Although negative thoughts of people is throwing and he or she stand bravely that happiness is on the way. For me I'm not against with it. " my dad answered me and my mom nodded with too.

" what if dad me, I found that I like a man more than a woman your still standing on your answer to me? " now my dad and mom look at each other. how I do hope that their answer is not change or else I keep it to them for the rest of my life, I don't want them to be hurt.

" My son.... What ever you choose in your Sexuality we are here to support you. We love you as who you are, as our one and only light of our family. Your precious more than a diamond to me and your dad. we were are happy if your happy too." my mom gives me a assurance. I'm so glad to heard that from them.

"And why my lovely son ask like this to your parents. "my dad questioning me.

" you know mom and dad, I meet our new teacher in compose his handsome near to be perfect. And there is something I feel inside of my heart like a car racing inside my chest. " I till them I don't want to had a secret to my parents.

"ohh, so you mean my baby had a crush on his handsome teacher" my mom teasing me and my dad just smiled on me so widely.

"mom, I'm eighteen already and it is my first time to feel this, I feel embarrassed of what I feel towards him, because he is my teacher, and also he is nice to me. Even we just see each other today I know he was a good man ." I explained. And my mom and dad give me a great advice how to handle my feelings, for me not to be destructed on my studies while he is around me.

The conversation with my parents is going smooth, and as usual they understand and support me. But I didn't want to go far for this feelings now, I'm still young and I had goals in life. I want to give back a honors to my parents upon finishing my studies and becoming a doctor and a good business man to, I'm a solo son, a solo grandchildren to both of my grandparents in my mom and my dad. I need to fulfill all there dreams for me.

I use this feelings to inspire me day by day , to keep working hard for my dreams. If one day we meet each other and I done my duty to my family and he is still single. I might be pursuing him and that time is the right time for me and him. But if his is having his one and only. Then move on. Life is to short to stay in the dark corner.

If I'm going to be a homosexuality until that right time I'm okay for surrogacy and give my parents there grandchildrens, not just one or two but more.
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