Fire And Desire

20: Guilt

20: Guilt

Reina Reigns

                  I look at the two bracelets on my wrist. One red and the other white. Ms. Laurent had given them to me a week ago, saying the red one will protect me from danger and the white one is for cleansing and prosperity. I'm not sure what kind of cleansing I needed, but I wore them out of respect for her and I really need the prosperity part to be true.

Despite of Miss Laurent reading me like I was an open book, she is a lovely woman, and that makes me wonder why Cesaro turned out to be so awful. Both of his parents are great people who I get along well with. After he walked out on me that night, I haven't seen him since. His mother called my phone the morning after he left. Miss Laurent was in tears while she spoke to me on the phone, asking if I knew where Cesaro was because he was not answering her calls and was also ignoring Mister Khan, which was unlike him.

If Cesaro decides to disappear off the face of this Earth, I would be the last person to know about it. I invited her to my favourite cafe after hearing how down see sounded over the phone. That's when she gifted me these two bracelets.

After making his parents worried sick for a few days, he contacted them, saying that he was out of the country on a business trip. Miss Laurent said she would stay at the house until he returns, considering her visit was because of him. I did not buy what he was trying to sell his parents. Something was up with him. It was obvious the night he stormed out, leaving me after I lashed out on him.

I felt tempted to text him, but I resisted the urge. Cesaro and I will never be friends and I still felt bad about what happened between us. I almost ruined my first real friendship with Priya because of the lack of control I have over my body. Cesaro's personality might not be the best, but that did not change the fact that his physical appearance was that of a god and temptation is real.

Taking up the mirror from my desk, I stared at my reflection. The marks on my neck had faded not long ago, but my lower lip now had a tiny scar on the inside. Thankfully, there was no sight of Aaron. I must admit that I am relief that he did not show his face. Miss Laurent protection bracelet must be working. If he were to show up I would finish what I started. Nothing gets me angrier than an abusive man, and seeing what my mother went through, I refused to be a victim. I would fight until my last breathe if I have to.

Placing the mirror down, I decide to continue working. I can not slack off because I already missed a day due to my injuries and was trying to make up for that. There was a shipment of new cars coming in that I need to check on and reply to a few emails.

                "Hey sweetie, how are you?" The pretty blonde says walking into my office followed by her blue eyes boyfriend, very soon to be fiance.

I smiled at them. Drew is taking Gemma out tonight to a fancy restaurant where he will propose to her. After narrowing down the list he went with Starlight express. It was a beautiful restaurant near the ocean where the stars were even more beautiful there. They also decorated the restaurant beautifully with star designs and from what I saw on the website, the architecture was breath taking.

Drew showed me the gorgeous silver ring earlier asking if I think Gemma will like it. It is the most gorgeous diamond ring I have ever seen and any woman would be in love with it at first sight. I felt honored that he would share something so special with me.

"I'm good, just finishing up some work. You are glowing, how are you?" She was indeed glowing in the lime colour strapless dress and silver heels. I always hated the colour, but it looked good on her. Her blonde hair was in a sleek low bun and her makeup was perfect.

Gemma laughs, "Thanks I feel extra special today. I just stopped by to see how you are doing and ask if you would like to join Drew and I for dinner next Friday night?" She's been checking on me ever since what happened and I finally realized what it felt like to have people who are not blood, care for me. The only people who I know cares about me are Melody and my mom. It was strange and I was waiting any minute now for it to all change. For them to tell be I'm the worst thing to walk the Earth and they were done with me.