Hi I hope you are not aware of the message I sent in the email.
I realized many things.
I realized the many differences we created in this relationship.
I realized we were so far apart that we couldn't spare time to talk
about work or even just for fun.
I know this is what I've been hoping for. you can work, you have time
to work and a lot of experience and get to know a lot of people. but
that doesn't make me secure in this relationship either.
You know I'm always happy when you have time even if only for a few
hours to meet me?
but no, you even always say "will meet" but in fact you don't.
If I'm being honest, I still love you very much, but I also hate as
much as I love you.
I want to stay together, but with you who really respect, you who are
truly responsible, you who really love me like a human, like a
partner, like a woman you should fight for.
but it feels like all those times are gone, it feels like all those
good intentions are gone.
please answer me next time, with you really having thought things through.
Am I really still in your heart?
do you really still love me?
do you really still need me?
if indeed everything is no longer there, let's agree not to continue
the story about us. let's agree not to continue our relationship.
let's agree on this.
help me not to hesitate to let go of what I've been holding on to all this time.
help me to be absolutely sure of what I have chosen by agreement.
I promise, I will never appear, disturb, seek and even see you again, if indeed we both agree not to continue this story.
move on to be better.
I don't want to make me look for you always because this heart is still with you,
I don't want to cry for you every night because I hope you come,
I don't want to hurt myself because I hope you care.
I put all my hope, I put my hope in you, my future and my life. I just don't want to realize that I'm being wasted again with the person I truly care about more than anything else.
and that's wrong. but I'm doing that to you right now.
Let's go out, I don't want to cry at home to solve this problem. please take a little time. I won't force it anymore. thanks. have a nice day.
dari aku, untukmu yg membaca ini
KAMU SEDANG MEMBACA
a word come from mind
Aléatoireketika tak ada yg mampu mendengarkan. kuharap dengan menulis, akan ada yg mengerti. a word come from mind bukan sebuah kisah atau cerita. tapi sebuah curahan dimana aku tak mampu berbicara untuk menyampaikan perasaan yg dirasakan.
