Lusting for him (Coronation street)

Twenty three

Chloe sat in the flat and sighed. Her head was a mess. 

She knew that she and Nick were getting closer but she also knew how she was pregnant with aidans baby and how he only been gone a few months and she hated it,

she knew that she would love to just be able to move on and be happy but she knew that she was far from ready all that she wanted to do was move on and focus on her baby

Chloe knew that it was for the best and how she was trying to focus on her baby and how Aidan would never get to meet her and the duckies more than anything.

Chloe looked to her engagement ring and sighed. She knew how wrong it felt to wear it now but she also knew that she couldn't take it off, it felt like a dishonour. Brooke walked into the room and smiled as she looked to Chloe

"hey are you okay" Brooke asked as Chloe sighed

"I don't know. I just...I don't know what to think. I mean I miss Aidan every day and some days are hard and then there's some days I think I could move on but you know" Chloe said as Brooke smiled

"I know it's hard but when you are ready you will know" Brooke said as Chloe smiled knowing that she was far from ready
  
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Chloe sat in the cafe and looked to see as Tracey walked in and smiled. She looked to her daughter and smiled

"are you okay. I feel like I have hardly seen you since aidan. I am sorry I Haven't been there for you and been a better mum for you" Tracey said as Chloe smiled

"don't worry you have had things going on too" Chloe said a she sat stirring at her hot chocolate

"so what's going on" Tracey asked as Chloe smiled

"I'm pregnant, aidans baby, it's a girl I'm half way I didn't even realise I was pregnant, you know he could of known and he could of decided to stay if I found out earlier you how" Chloe said as Tracey smiled

"you don't know that Chloe, you can't torture yourself like this, all you need to know is that you are going to be a mum and that baby is going to be even more precious because of Aidan and how you lost him and I know that you have the connors there for you but don't forget that you also have a family that is there for you and it's all going to be okay" Tracey said as Chloe looked to her and smiled.

Chloe knew just how hard it was

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Chloe got to aidans grave and smiled as she placed some flowers down and sighed

"it's me baby. Im sorry I am I haven't been here for a while and it's hard. I can't...it's hard to accept that you are still gone and I miss you. Im pregnant im having your baby, your baby girl and I just know how you would of been the best daddy but I am going to look after her and she is going to know how great you are i promise" Chloe said as she wiped the tears from eyes and sighed.

Chloe knew that none of this was going to be easy