a particular slytherin. (a harry potter fanfic)

chapter 28 [ isolation ]

after i came back from the hospital wing, i decided to just sit down at the courtyard first, it always calmed me down in moments like this. the nostalgia and everything. but i didnt see a lot of people in the courtyard, i mostly hid behind a tree so i could never know. but i just wanted peace and quiet.

i checked my pocket to see the letters ivanov and cadieux gave me. i'll probably read them later. i put it back in my pocket and just admired the scene before me, theres always a rainbow after a storm. i looked down to my bandages and noticed one in my arm, i didn't know why but okay.

after an hour i decided to go to hagrids, it was walking distance and i just didn't wanna face my friends right now.

i knocked on the door and hagrid opened it.

"ah, l/n. what are yer doing here?" he asked. i saw some creatures behind him and i smiled at them.

"i dont know, to be honest." i looked away.

"do not worry, just go in." he let me in and i looked around his house. it seemed cozy.

"so how are ye feeling?" he asked while pouring tea, i assume.

"it still hurts a little but otherwise im fi- is that a dragon egg?" my focus was trailed over to the egg ob the table and hagrid xovered it.

"er no! thats- thats just a normal egg!" he gave me the tea and i rose my eyebrow. well i guess i shouldn't pry further.

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two hours later i was out of hagrids hut, we mostly talked about magical xreatures, though i wish he was a teacher. he helped me prepare mentally for going back to society. madame pomfrey told me not to walk a lot, and yet i am. my pride would be shattered if i go back, i dont wanr anyone seeing me weak or vulnerable. but i guess it wouldn't hurt, its my close friends after all. i went back to the common room, to see no one around. wow. all that courage for nothing i guess. i went up to my dorm and i took a shower, changed clothes and just sat there. i wasn't allowed to attend any class this week. what do i do to pass the time?

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so, i slept.

surprise surprise, i know. but i heard some people going back to the common room, so that must mean class is over. i dont know what to do.

"hey, y/n? we tried to visit you, but they said you were discharged." i heard andromeda say on the other side of the door, and i just listened.

"yeah, if you need time i completely understajd, but i didn't see you get lunch so here." she added and i heard a plate being put down behind the door, this gives back major flashbacks.

"i'll be in my room, if you need anything." i heard her footsteps getting quieter and i opened the door and got the food. luckily, there was no one around.

i dont deserve friends like them. who would stay with me?

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i casually went down to the common room later, and i tried not to draw attention to myself.

then nott saw me.

"l/n!" i heard him call out and i just rushed to go outside, i didn't even plan to but i dont wanna talk to him at all. i got outside and just started walking somewhere, i knew i wasn't going to be treated the same, i just want everything to go back to normal. please.

i broke down in tears and hid in the closest room i could find. wait, where am i?

i looked around to see a room with a fireplace, and a couch. i looked around, is this the room of requirement? i thought it was a myth.

i wiped mt tears and looked out the window, i saw the stars and everything. the night sky is really calming, i stared st it for a long time and i forgot everything. it calmed me down and i was finally in a good enough mental state to face people. i can do this.

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i walked back to the common room and people stared at me, am i super super hot today? haha please laugh this is how i cope.

i rolled my eyes at them and glared, they stopped staring and i felt like one by one it was being fixed. maybe it is okay to take some time for yourself.

"y/n?" regulus sat next to me and i looked at him.

"oh thank god you're better." he hugged me and i just smiled at him.

"yeah, that was a lot, even for me." i looked dkwn and he tucked my hair behind my ear.

"well, you look so beautiful today." he smiled at me. i swear, my friends are going to be the death of me. i lovr them so much and would die for them.