My Angel And My Devil

23: I want to...

I walk away from malphas that was standing at the shore next to the sea. I don't want to do this but... Its the only way so that Ill pass through the pain and forget all of the things that have happened in the past days. And this is going to be so hard for me that I don't think my parents and all my family members will get what I'm doing.

But its really frustrating to think that this thing will be alright. I need to ask malphas. I need to ask him what the hell Lucifer needs from me to keep the piece here in this upside down and very twisted place called hell or underworld as others call it.

"Malphas.. What do you think Lucifer wants from me? " I twist Myself to get a view of the person I was talking too. Yet I look at the view in front of me and see him in a more calm and quite state of mind. He was staring at the distance of the sea of fire, into the infinite and endless like sea that was burning the hell out of life.

But come to think of it.. now that malphas is in the view of the sea. He makes it beautiful... No. Not beautiful but extremely magnetizing to the sight of the eyes. Its like one of those picture that I see in magazines and story books. But those one is very different and engulfing. It really captures the eye of the beholder.

"Do you really want to know?" He said those words like daggers thrown over me. I don't know why but the words that he just said are so hard to say. Do I really want to know. Is it the right thing to know the thing that I won't expect.

What if they'll kill me and burn me down here in hell Alive. Especially now that my Angel is on a mission to save me for some reason. What if they'd make me a devil and kill souls and mortals that are very innocent to what will happen to them and die without even knowing that they have had already meet they're death.

And you know the worst part is that I merry malphas and makes me his wife to rule the never ending life in hell that I'll be taken away from my own freedom and do things that aren't right for me and aren't going to be good for others, especially if it Hurt's that feelings of a person and be a cause of a problem to there life. Then that will be the time that I'll die willingly to my own piece of mind and for the sake of others that haven't done anything wrong, and for the others that want to change and to make the mistake of the past into a lesson for the future.

The answer to malphas question are only yes or no. Its that easy but harder than and exam to answer the life changing question. It will change the way I look at malphas. The way that metamorphosis is going to be good or bring me down to hell burning.

"Yes.. I want to know why is he doing this. It can't be just a misunderstanding. It can't be a coincidence. Its a can be a plan or it will be funny if its an destiny.

"OK... Lucifer wants you to merry me." And the words that I was thinking in my mind that I wish to never to come true did happen. And this will be the start of my death wish. I wish that I'll forget everything whether im dead or alive breathing with my heart beating to forget him. Then I'll do anything to die.

"The hell! What the hell!" I scream and after I felt the words are out of my mouth I just stood there like I was a statue in full horror to what will happen to me if I marry him. Will he be nice. Can he be a good being. And why the hell I'm thinking of him if I want to forget him. I need to go as far as I can to think clearly of the things that are happening to me." I need some space malphas.. Too think about the things that are happening so quickly."

And as I walk way from malphas and into the red blood forest. A very weird word pop in my head.

Will he like me?will he love me? And it played on and on in my head that it made me crazy.

My life is really extreme.

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