Icarus || Jegulus

XIV

The conversation was quick, the order had discussed how they would move forward with the war. Harry wanted to be in the conversation sure, but all he could think of was that letter, stuffed at the bottom of an end table. Begging to be read but feeling too private to indulge, the letter felt like something between Regulus and his dad. And he would hate to step into their space based on curiosity.

"Harry?" His eyes darted up to meet Ginny's. How people their age were allowed in this meeting was beyond him. He looked at Dumbledore quickly before returning to Ginny, a 14 year old who was in the same room as a high trained auror, discussing a war like they would play the same role. "You okay?"

"Oh... sorry, I was just thinking of stuff" Ginny smiled sadly, looking down. But her smile returned to look at Harry once again.

"Coming here makes me miss Hogwarts, it's so much easier there" Ginny spoke in almost a whisper, scared that any wrong word will make her be kicked out of the meeting.

"Yeah me too" they looked at eachother with more words than were actually spoken. This was it, this was the year that Hogwarts would be the only safe place yet.

I plan to join Dumbledore, as soon as I'm allowed. When I told my mother she just frowned at me, as if I was doing something disappointing by deciding to fight?!

I can't stand the waiting anymore, waiting for news on Regulus. I keep hoping I'll be able to catch my parents talking to Dumbledore about him but I never have.

"I apologize Euphemia, but if we take Regulus away from the Blacks then the order will loose a useful spy in the war"

James froze, he had gone downstairs late at night for water. He had almost given up on it, him. Not him in particular but the idea of him coming to his house.

Now he wished that they had just never discussed it, a spy?! That's what Regulus' worth has been broken down into. 'Yeah he's being abused but he could make a good spy as long as he doesn't die before then'?

"Dumbledore-" His mothers tone was sharp, he had only heard it when she spoke to Walburga at the platform.

"We have already lost Sirius we can't afford to loose another spy" James would have ran up to Dumbledore himself but his mother responded before he had prepared a long enough argument.

"Child, Albus. He is a child, in a house that I have seen Sirius return from barely alive. He is not a spy for you to stand by and watch until he is ready to be a pawn for your twisted plans"

"This will not be discussed further Euphemia" James heard the sound of the floo call being ended. He snuck up to his room closing the door behind him.

His head was pushed against his door as his brain replayed the conversation.

'We can't loose another spy'

"Fuck, holy fuck, Reg, fuck!" James couldn't calm his breathing. His eyes shut as he gripped his hair to try to ground himself.

"James?"

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Dumblewhore is a manipulative bastard 😐😬 not a new concept