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"I dont want to" Ranboo angst oneshot

(A/N : Not an update, just needed to add the TW and summary)

  TW: Panic attack and intrusive thoughts (maybe? idk what classifies as an intrusive thought.)

Those words. Who knew that 4 words could send you into a spiral. Just four. Ranboo knew that he was bringing up old feelings. Feelings that he thought were buried deep. Like, bedrock level deep. But, apparently not, as they resurfaced far too quickly, engulfing him in a wave of sadness.

For days now, he'd been trying to get anybody on the smp to hang out with him. He was in such a bad mood, but either his friends were busy, or they were sick, or they didn't feel like socializing, and it was just not helping him. He'd tried to ask Tubbo. But, the bee boy just didn't want to talk to people. He tried asking Tommy, but then he remembered (for once) that Tommy was in exile and he couldn't see him. He went back to Tubbo, twice! Ranboo was trying so hard, he knew he would fall back to that dark place he was before he met his friends if he didn't see people. After all, that's why he was breaking down. He was lonely, and that's what sent him spiraling the first time. If he wasn't so scared of losing his friends then he would tell them. And he would stop lying to them and actually be himself. But he couldn't be himself, for he was too afraid of the consequences. He didn't want to lose Tommy and Tubbo the way that he'd lost his previous friends, he couldn't afford to, because he'd break down again and send himself into the darkest place he's ever been, and he cant have that. He knows he'd push everybody away, losing everything and everybody who would stick around.

So he keeps it in. He stuffs it into the overflowing bottle, and shoves the container to the farthest corner in his mind that he could find. He knew it would crack eventually, and it would explode over the smallest things, but he didnt care about that. For now, he'll sleep. So he wont think of anything, and he might just be happy, even if it was only in his dreams.

Summary: Ranboo basically has a panic attack about how his friends dont like him and then he goes to sleep because yes.

{ A/N!

First chapter done! Yay! This was written on December 25,2021 and posted December 27th, 2021. It was 349 words, excluding the A/N. Please vote and comment if you liked the story, as it would help the story grow very much, thanks! Well, I hope you have a good day, dont forget to eat and drink water! Byeee!}