♡︎𝙼𝙲𝚈𝚃 𝐎𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐭𝐬 𝐀𝐧𝐝 𝐏𝐫𝐞𝐟𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞𝐬♡︎

-- 𝙲𝚊𝚗𝚝 𝚑𝚎𝚕𝚙 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝙲𝚛𝚢

Ranboo x Reader.
𝚜𝚑𝚎 / 𝚑𝚎𝚛 used.
TRIGGER WARNING!!!
S*LF H@RM. SUICIDAL THOUGHTS. SERIOUS PANIC ATTACK

Y/N pov.

As I walked up the stairs to Ranboo house I remember that I have headphones in. I take them out and place them in the airpod case before placing them in my pocket then knocking on the door.

Hearing footsteps slowly approach the door I look at the door handle, waiting for it to open as I feel the cold breeze against the back of my neck.

As the door swings open I see a short woman on the other side of the door. "Y/N! Come in darling, Ranboo is up in his room talking to Tubbo." She says.

"Thank you! How are you?" I say to Ranboos mother

"Im quite good darling, how about yourself?"

"Quite well, just got some editing done so I though Ranboo and I could stream together." I say,

"That sounds lovely, have a great stream!" She says as I head up the stairs, letting out a short thank you before heading over to Ranboos streaming room.

I hear chatter from the other side of the door, and as I am about to place my hand on the door handle I hear my name be said.

"Y/N, she has been so clingy recently. Like, she comes over everyday and she is next to me or in my room 24/7, when I'm streaming, editing, anything. It's always 'Can we stream together' or 'you busy? I wanna come over'. It's getting really annoying, it's like she can't stream by herself." I hear the only person in the room say, as my heart shatters and I feel tears prick the corners of my eyes.

I wipe the tears from my eyes and take my hand off of the door knob. The fact that he would say that behind my back. It shatterd me.

I start to head back down the stairs, leaving Ranboo to do his own thing.

"Going so early?" I hear motherboo say from the lounge as she looks into my red eyes.

"Yeah, I forgot that I gotta get the video out by tonight, might just have a night off streaming today, thank you though" I say, as I head to the door, saying a quick goodbye then shutting it behind me.

I walk the short walk through Ranboos frount yard, directly into mine.

I walk into my house, of course my parents arnt home. As soon as I close the door I let the tears that have been building up in my eyes lose. Tears, Flowing down my face I jog up to my bedroom, shutting the door behind me and collapsing onto my bed, grabbing a pillow and hugging it while crying into it.

At this point my mind isn't set on one thing, it's just everything building up over the past month coming out at once.

I take my head off of my pillow, putting my phone on the charger then going to the bathroom, while locking the door behind me.

I go through my drawer and grab the small blade at the bottom under my face towel.

I slowly lift up my left hoodie sleeve, revealing two week old cuts. I sink the blade through the first couple layers of skin, while guiding in a straight line.