"Not all evil men are evil, some are evil men willing to do good, baby..."
I closed the story book as I watch my little girl close her eyes while I read a bedtime story for her. I tucked Hyan to bed and kissed her forehead before looking at the crib next to her to check if Haley ---- my three year old baby girl is asleep. I smiled as I look at my best girls.
Pinatay ko ang ilaw at lumabas na ng silid nila. Hindi ko isinara ang pintuan para madinig ko kung anoman ang mangyayari sa loob niyon. I went to the boys bedroom where I found my best boys --- Hyron, Hunter and Heath. Hyron is already asleep when I entered their room but Hunter and Heath were still playing doctor who and they only stopped when they saw me.
"Momma's here! She caught us!" Heath yelled at his younger brother. Namaywang ako.
"Didn't your dad tuck you two?" Nakataas ang kilay na tanong ko.
"Dada did but we played him!" Heath said proudly. "Kunwari we sleep na. Kuya Hyron was supposed to be with us but he really did fall asleep from all the reading and stuffs momma!"
Tumaas lalo ang kilay ko. Kinarga ko si Hunter at hinatak ko naman ang kamay ni Heath para ilagay sila sa kama.
"Doctor who is over. You boys need to sleep and you should stop out smarting your dad! He loves you too much!" Hinalikan ko ang dalawa sa noo at siniguro na hindi na sila maglalaro muli paglabas ko ng silid nila. They had a long day and they all need to rest now.
Pinatay ko ang ilaw sa silid na iyon at dumiretso sa silid namin ni Helios. I found him on the bed sleeping with hia book in his chest. Suot niya pa dib ang reading glass niya. He must be really tired. Sumampa ako sa kama at inayos siya. He stirred when I took of his reading glass. Iminulat niya ang mga mata niya at saka ngumiti.
"Hey, love..."
"Your sons have out smart you again, Demitri." Pinanlakihan ko siya ng mga mata. He chuckled. Para bang alam na niya ang ginawa ng mga ito sa silid matapos niyang iwanan ang dalawa.
"They are really smart, love. They took it from your genes." Ngumisi siya sa akin. He put his arms around me. Sumandal naman ako sa dibdib niya. He was half naked but he's wearing his jammies --- the one that matches mine --- yes we wear matching pajamas because I really think it's cute.
"Yes I am smart --- actually very smart and because I am smart I have you here in my little palms and I can get you to do anything I want because you fell for me. HAHA!" I acted as if I was mocking him. I knew that he likes it when I do all the mocking and he'll just laugh at me.
"I missed this..." Hinagkan niya ako sa sentido. Lalo akong lumapit sa kanya. I like Helios' warmth. "I miss you on my bed, love. I've been really busy and I want nothing more but to spend tine with you and the kids. I hate working out of town. I only have Yto beside me and waking up beside your brother although he looks a lot like you creeps the fuck out of me!"
Napahagalpak ako nang tawa sa narinig ko. Last week, buong linggo siyang wala dahil nagpunta sila ni Yto sa Balesin for a client call and he's with Yto. Buong linggo silang magkasama. Hinaplos ko ang mukha ni Helios. The truth is, I have missed him too. Isang buong linggo na ang kasama ko sa kwarto ay ang mga bata and I was really glad he's back. The kids seemed to miss him too especially the young ones.
"Love, have you ever wondered what will happen if you didn't meet me at all?"
Hindi ko alam kung bakit niya tinanong sa akin iyon. Ngayon ko nga lang dina naisip iyon. I looked at him.
"I haven't thought about that but noe that you have mentioned it, I'd probably be married to Zach by now or..." I grinned. "I'd break up with him because he got to famous and he met someone else while on the road and by that time I'd be married to Nicanor San Vicente."
"He tried courting you?" He sounded appalled.
"Oh yeah but I married Hector so he lost his chance then I divorced him and married you then had five amazing kids. I love you, hot stuff!" Kinindatan ko si Hector. "By the way, you should really go to the gym. You're losing your abs! I don't really know if I want a husbabd without abs!"
"Why Mrs. Demitri, did you marry me because of my body? Are you only in for the lust?"
I giggled like a little kid. Niyakap ko na lamang si Helios. I love laughing woth hin and gooffing around with him. Isa iyon sa mga bagay na hinahanap - hanap ko kapag wala siya.
"If ever I have an out of town again. I'm taking you. I don't wanna miss you that much." Hinagkan niya ako sa labi. Pumikit naman ako ay hinayaan ko siya. Mula noong unang araw ko siyang minahal hanggang sa araw na ito ay hindi nagbago ang pagmamahal na nararamdaman ko.
Considering the way we started and the way he treated me that fateful night --- so many things have changed but never the way I love him or the way he looks at me.
Change isn't really the permanent thing in this world but love. Love is permanent --- especially if it's true and if it's with the right person and in my case Helios is my right person who used to be the wrong one.
"I'm always looking forward to spending my lifetime with you, Mrs. Demitri."
"And I, with you."
We kissed again. After that he placed me by his side and he big spooned me. I love being trapped in his arms and I love his warmth.
I love him...
