evo sta ti tfthkab uradi smh.....

no i dont feel guilty ab this one.

cw / dysphoria mention

a/n: ignore how the paragraphs arent the way they should be wattpad is a bit of a shit

they sat on her bed as she showed him her makeup. she explained what everything was for as she showed them, and he nodded, listening.

"you ever tried it ?", she asked, stopping on a dark red lipstick and turning it over and over in her hands.

"makeup ?", he asked. his eyes darted from the lipstick in her hands to her eyes.

she nodded.

"i have as a little kid. maybe, i used it till i was about ten ? then i began to grasp the meaning of dysphoria and i stopped because it was considered, ", he stopped, blinking, "girly", he finished.

"does it bother you now ?", she asked, her gaze up again, staring straight into his eyes.

"i haven't tried", he mumbled, "i don't think so, though. i put on a little blush and the gender euphoria..... i don't see why it would be otherwise for more makeup", his gaze lowered, his eyes falling to the lipstick she clutched in her hands tightly. "you okay though ?", he asked, looking up at her once again.

"i am, why ?" her hands stilled on the lipstick and her knuckles turned white from the pressure, but he shook his head and looked away. maybe it was personal, or maybe she just didn't want to tell him. either way, he shouldn't pry, right ?

"do you wanna try ?", she asked then.

"what ?", he asked.

"makeup", she said, putting the lipstick down on the mattress.

"oh", he let out. "i do, but i don't know how to.... any of this", he added, vaguely gesturing to the mess in front of him.

"oh i meant to, um, i can do it for you", she said and her hands clutched her trousers, her knuckles white again, and was she okay ? he reached out slowly, his hand laying on top of her, gently, and

"are you sure you're fine ?", he muttered, meeting her eyes.

"oh, uh, yeah ! i am i swear ! i'm just a bit nervous, um, not sure why", she said, her hand staying under his as her other one waved around.
she looked down, her cheeks tinted pink and her lips in a small smile.

he nodded again, not quite sure he believed her but, he nodded, and nodded, and let her hand go, feeling cold on his palm. "though you can put makeup on me, yeah ! it sounds fun", he said.

she nodded at him excitedly, trying to gather all the products on a pile with her hands, and then she put her palms flat on the mattress and shifted. his breath got caught in his throat, his eyes widened and all he could think was close. so close. so, so close.

he hated himself for glancing at her lips, because, because she must've noticed. she definitely noticed and god, she didn't say anything about it.

she smiled at him, her gaze all over his face and he looked away. his face burned, it burned so much, he must be so red right now.

she laughed.

"what do you want ? have you ever thought about something or, just, whatever ?", she asked as she sorted the pile beside them.

"i haven't really.. i mean those big eyeliner styles on tiktok look nice sometimes but i haven't looked at makeup stuff in a long time", he mumbled, looking anywhere but her face, because her messy floor looked, god, so interesting right now.

he felt her breath on his face as she puffed out another, breathless laugh and looked at him. her face was flushed too. the room felt so hot suddenly, and time passed so slowly as she glanced down at his lips several times, and his cheeks, his nose, his eyes.