evo sta ti tfthkab uradi smh.....

im so sorry about this i swear i didnt-

cw: sudden panic attack

a/n: i am deeply sorry about this i swear i didnt mean for it to happen it just did and i uh yeah i have no excuses

"sorry, wait, um, wa, wait a second, please, wait, can you, you, can you just, just let me go, please !", his words blurred together and he yelled the last word out, his eyes wide. the guy let him go, suprised at his outburst and stepped back with his hands in the air.

he couldn't, he couldn't, god, he couldn't breathe.

he heaved in breath after breath, his chest tightening so much, and he kept glancing around himself,

was no one going to help ?

fuck.

fuck, god, fuck, and his legs gave out and he slumped to the floor, clutching at the front of his shirt.

stop, stop stop stop stop, you're in the middle of a hallway.

god.

his forehead hit his knees and he sat there on the floor, sobbing and coughing. he can't, he can't, he-

"hey, can you hear me ?", he heard a voice and felt a hand on his back and he jumped, looking around with wide eyes and inching away on the floor. his back hit the wall.

her.

it was her.

he looked down, feeling humiliated, but, the hallway was empty ? and the guy, where was that guy ?

it all felt too fast.

she was here, it was over. wasn't the room spinning just a second ago ?

this is so embarrassing.

he heard her shuffling on the hard, dirty floor, and she crouched in front of him.

"what happened ?", she asked quietly, "it's okay, breathe. it's just us", she added and he saw her hand briefly reaching out, but she pulled it back in her lap.

he took a breath in and held it.

he let it out.

he took another breath in and looked up at her.

he'd done it again.

he made her worried again, her lips in a line again, her eyebrows furrowed again, and god he couldn't look at her. he felt so ashamed.

"sorry...", he croaked out, and his voice was so weak.

"no no, don't apologize", she said in a hurry, her hands flying around, "it's not your fault"

and he laughed, dry and breathless.

he lowered his knees and spread his arms in a hug manner, hoping she wasn't mad at him for pushing her away a minute ago.

her eyes lit up and she leaned in to hug him, her whole weight falling onto him. his back hit the wall and he sighed.

he took in another shuddery breath and buried his nose in her shoulder. his mouth trembled.

"this guy just, h, hugged me out of nowhere and i just... panicked", he said, trying to speak louder so she'd hear, "it's really nothing"

"shh, it's not nothing !", she said, her arms tightening as if she was angry and he mumbled a "sorry" right away.

"don't apologize", she sighed. "it's okay. it's just us now", she said.

her hands moved on his back, rubbing it and he breathed into her shoulder, steadying his breathing.

"thanks", he nodded.

but what will he do when she isn't there ?