Best friend | Lizrei

Chapter 6 - Right, Wrong

Present day

Liz

My heart felt sore, as if someone had stabbed it multiple times, as if she stabbed it multiple times. She apologised and I forgave, shouldn't I feel relieved?

Part of me feels pathetic for holding on to her after being rejected so many times. I know she doesn't feel the same way. Even if she said she did, I knew it meant something else.

Now here I am, in her apartment, laying on her bed. Been here before, I know this feeling all too well. The smell of freshly cooked food coming from the kitchen, her warm blanket wrapped around me. I knew this all too well.

I heard soft knocks on the door as she entered the room. "Liz, wake up~ I made breakfast"

Rei sat on the edge, gently rubbing the blanket that covered my legs as if I were a baby. "Why do you always cook this early? Let me sleep for a little longer" I groaned, turning away from her.

Rei

A smile grew on my lips as I watched her. Those months of not being with each other felt like a ongoing nightmare that never seemed to end. The place felt so empty without her presence.

But she's here now, with me. And I'm never letting go of her again.

"Wake up jagi~ I wanna go to the park again" I whined, which made her turn back around.

"Fine~"

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My arm linked onto Liz's instinctively as we walked out of the apartment complex.

"Where are we going?" She softly stared at me, unknowingly tilting her head ever so slightly.

"Where we always go" I smiled at her, she did the same with her adorable grin.

We walked in a comfortable silence as the cold winter wind blew past us. I felt her soft hands touch mine and realised that she was trying to hold it. My eyes turned to stare at her as our finger intertwined but she didn't look back.

The park wasn't far from my apartment, less than 5 minutes away. But this trip felt longer than usual, as if we were walking slower. I didn't mind it because I was with her, I was with Liz.

Liz

This doesn't feel right. This setting, this time, it feels all wrong. Holding her hand doesn't feel the same way anymore, it doesn't make my heart race, it doesn't make my stomach flutter like it use to. Being with her at this moment doesn't make me feel in love with her.

Have I moved on? Did I lose feelings? Was I hurt so bad that the feelings disappeared?

Whatever it is I don't like it. I wanna feel the way I use to when I'm around her. I want that feeling of warmth and comfort but also the butterflies and my heart racing because I liked her. Now it just feels like any other friendship.

We got to the park and of course, she headed to the swings first. I slowly followed her and admired her happiness.

I use to look at her like she was the important person in my life, someone I'll love forever and ever no matter how much she hurt me. She was my everything. Now, I don't feel anything.

Rei

I sat on the swing and saw Liz slowly approaching. My smile widened as we locked eyes, giving me butterflies. Something seems off though, but I don't know what.

She looked up to meet my eyes. "I been thinking. Since it's a new year, I wanna go back to school and start over between us"

I couldn't properly make of what she said. Distracted by the feelings as I stared into her brown orbs. I've always had feelings towards Liz, romantic ones. Maybe it was just now that I realised how much I actually liked her.

Despite the freezing cold winter weather, I felt warm and my cheeks were burning up. My eyes never left her even though she looked away. 

Everything felt so right when I was with her. I'm meant to be here, I'm meant to be with her. She's my everything. I use to image myself being with the person I loved most but now I don't have to because she's right here.

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